A quiet night...

Tonight's an especially quiet night... So quiet tt thoughts start to run all over ur mind... Realised tt many ppl ard me arent exactly wad i thought they were... I have always been e impression tt at any one point of time, everyone will be having some thing which occupies their time n effort, n of cos, for the nerdy nerds, mugging is of cos, their main activity then... But everyone feels lonely at some time... Try to take a look around u, n u'll find that many ppl who may appear to be happening or happy may not be as what they portray... Everyone is afraid of loneliness, (at least tts wad i think)... But we always try to twist the truth to what we like to feel or hear, hoping for possibilities which arent even possible in e first place... Yet, is this the way the world is to be? Ppl trying to feel happy by deluding themselves, instead of facing up to this sad fact of life.... Maybe its just me, but this quiet n serene night really spooks me off... Makes me think about myself, how many friends do i have... Out of which, how many can i really confide in n trust them? Hmm....

There're just too much stuff gng on in my mind now... so much tt its even impossible for me to pen down every single thing i am thinking about... N of cos, not everything i think about is readible... Hehz... There's always a side of a person which he prefers not to reveal, u nv know e consequences... But well, shd i always be so clear-headed everytime? Thinking thru stuff before i would actually say it or write it down... Or shd i just sometimes blast my loud mouth away? Mebbe its cos i always put in an effort not to cause any displeasure, but well, i dun express myself tt well at times too... think i'm typing a lil disorganized now, thinking bt too much stuff... Like if any of my efforts were even recognizable... or yielding results which i wanted... But is e result always e most impt thing? Wad about the process, or mebbe even just the mere thought of it... Feeling tired already, mebbe its time to consult zhou gong...