Depression...

I guess everyone suffers from tt at 1 pt or another... But well, its nv happened to me until now... Feeling totally depressed over work n life... Not understanding stuff in classes which i tot i could understand. Not having enough time to really read thru stuff, but i guess time is created by urself... Overestimating my own abilities was something very wrong, n i'm regretting it totally now... Do i sound depressed? I guess so...

Its only a hw i told myself... So wad if u cant finish a hw? its not about the 2% or 3% but its about my attitude as a whole... I really feel like giving up, wads the pt of piaing so much. Trying to understand so much. Trying to do wad i believe i can do. So wad if i do it? So wad if i fail? does it matter in the future? No. Will it affect my GPA? No. So wad does it affect?

ME... Yes. As mingyang pted out, its not really about whether we can afford to slack, but its our own personal drive pushing us on for more. I need a total of 4 courses in all to grad, but y am i takin 4 now and planning to take another 2-3 next sem when i dun need them? Y am i even taking grad courses? Is it tt i really have interest in it? I thought so but y am i then feeling the way i do. Perhaps its simply my ego being too big for my abilities. Maybe someone shd juz knock me on the head n tell me i'm not as smart as i think i am, n tt i shd really go fer the easier way out of things.

Y cant i have a lower drive. A less motivated me. A true slacker who would just take the easy way out of things. A me who cant be bothered. A me who dares to do wad i want. A me who lives without regrets. A me whom i want to be, not who i am.