Life is kindaf conflicting at times... Sometimes i juz wanna put stuff on my msn, not for ppl to know, or for them to ask, but for me to put it... Like a sort of venting my frustrations...
But now, im scared to put things on my msn nick... I dun want ppl to ask bt it, i just want them to accept it as it is... Maybe tts y i've decided to post more on this blog, n put less on my msn... At least i know tt not many ppl still read this... N tt only ppl who are concerned would read...

Insecurity... This word has been a big part of my week... Someone telling me bt this feeling of insecurity... N me myself experiencing it... Perhaps tts y many ppl ard me are asking me if im emo or sth, but perhaps, its juz this insecurity feeling i get... This feeling that i know i should not be feeling but yet, i am feeling it... Its not even that i feel tt something bad is happening, but i juz cant help but look at the worst case... That what if blah blah blah is true, what if all that i am afraid of is true... I know that it is very unlikely to be true, but the "whatifs" still plague me a lot... Perhaps its cos i care bt this too much to be wrong...


I like the series 1 tree hill a lot, its really seems quite relevant to my life... Juz 1 word of advice, unless ur life is smooth-sailing, else better dun watch it... Will only make u feel worse... =p