Juz re-watched Randy Pausch's last lecture... N even in the shitty state im in now, it still managed to inspire me to do better... Work's been a whore, i swear... Debugging, debugging, debugging and still behind schedule... N even though i really put in effort in debugging, it just gets demoralising when ppl working on it are all pretty negative bt it... N with some testers constantly telling u ur system "failed again" or "hang" etc, it really dxn help 1 bit... Esp when the system wasnt hanging in the first place... N it REALLY dxn help when it seems like u're putting in more effort than the other ppl, but yet u dun even know if anyone appreciates u for ur help... N i am really tired... I just want to take a long break n dun give a shit bt it... But its juz not me bahz...

Anyways, here i am... Feeling pretty demoralised at work... Seeing everyone else knock off on time, me putting on extra effort, and not even sure if its gonna make much diff... N with version control and other minute shitty issues coming, its eriously not fun... But as Randy said, u're stuck in a situation... U can 1. be tigger, or 2. be eyeore... Its ez to be eyeore, complain bt this, complain bt that, n dun do anything... Or since the time is gng to be spent there anyways, y not look at it in a positive light n endeavor to get it done right... The best saying tt i remembered: "Brick walls are there for a reason, to filter out the people who dun want it badly enough". So let me juz try to give it 1 more shot... Im sure this will finally be over... :)