Its weird the way we think... Or rather, me...

Been kindaf bz over the past weeks... With my coding n stuff... It aint tt bad actually, the programming part... But when it comes to the debuggin part, i'm absolutely bad... Always spend hrs looking at it seemingly nothing wrong, only for mingyang or yihang to come n say, how come u nv.... Then i'll really Wake up....
WAsnt doing as well as i expected, due to a plethora of stupid n costly mistakes... N the fear of not doing well was haunting me... But more importantly, it really makes me think... If i dun do wel for the subject, does it mean tt i shdnt pursue the path anymore? How good i am at the subject is determined by what i understand from it, n my personal flair for it... A, B, C dun determine it... Yet its weird that the grade u get can really deter u from it...
Think i'm just unsure of myself, the grade is something i look at to confirm my own confidence in myself... But all around us, we're always looking at other stuff to confirm our own beliefs, thoughts, feelings... It may be weird, but think of the last time when u felt confused or lost... How many of those times did you actually think of what u did to confirm ur feelings at that time... Have u ever asked urself if u like this xxx? Then u try to recall what u did for her/him, n from there, u determine if u stil liked her... Or when faced with a simple qn like, are u a kind person? U try to recall the first instance tt u did a kind deed n get the ans from there... N yet, we say that our desires control our actions... Is this some sort of egg n chicken relation which can nv be sorted out? Hmm.... Shallnt prod deeper... Tired...

Life's been a lil borring... REally cant wait for all this to be over... 17 more days to go man! then back to my fav lifestyle.... Waiting...