Im back to blogging! At least for now.. Since i have the time every nite after gogoing... When i farming... I guess it also means i have more time to myself... But today is a good day! Was really surprised when my boss told me she noticed me OTing quite often and decide to give me a day off... At least i feel tt my efforts are appreciated... Was feeling kindaf down last week when i was seriously thinking why the heck am i doing so much... When i could've been doing more fun stuff... Like gng to gym/jog, or msning certain ppl, or juz watching tv... Or juz reading my book... Ok, tt dxn sound fun at all... But pt is, i juz feel tt we're all in this shit together... Lets all try to get it done together, and there shd be no reason y its always my side making the changes to acccomodate other ppl... But oh wells, at least its ending soon... Or so i hope... Juz hope to be able to move on to a more interesting proj soon... There's still so much more i wanna learn...

Been watching a lot of soccer recently... And i attribute it all to fantasy soccer... I dun even know which team i support now, it seems tt im juz supporting players i have in it... lol... Oh wells, at least it makes me much more knowledgeable bt the different teams... Haha....

Juz re-watched Randy Pausch's last lecture... N even in the shitty state im in now, it still managed to inspire me to do better... Work's been a whore, i swear... Debugging, debugging, debugging and still behind schedule... N even though i really put in effort in debugging, it just gets demoralising when ppl working on it are all pretty negative bt it... N with some testers constantly telling u ur system "failed again" or "hang" etc, it really dxn help 1 bit... Esp when the system wasnt hanging in the first place... N it REALLY dxn help when it seems like u're putting in more effort than the other ppl, but yet u dun even know if anyone appreciates u for ur help... N i am really tired... I just want to take a long break n dun give a shit bt it... But its juz not me bahz...

Anyways, here i am... Feeling pretty demoralised at work... Seeing everyone else knock off on time, me putting on extra effort, and not even sure if its gonna make much diff... N with version control and other minute shitty issues coming, its eriously not fun... But as Randy said, u're stuck in a situation... U can 1. be tigger, or 2. be eyeore... Its ez to be eyeore, complain bt this, complain bt that, n dun do anything... Or since the time is gng to be spent there anyways, y not look at it in a positive light n endeavor to get it done right... The best saying tt i remembered: "Brick walls are there for a reason, to filter out the people who dun want it badly enough". So let me juz try to give it 1 more shot... Im sure this will finally be over... :)

2 plus months since my last post... Geez, im really lazy... But dunno y, dun really feel like posting... Guess my head's kindaf empty... Like nth much i really want to say... Finally finished settling something which i shd've done some time ago, but me being the wishy-washy me, will always drag when it comes to certain things... Oh wells, now at least its time to enjoy life all over again...

N did i say im REALLY tired? Ok, here it is... I AM REALLY TIRED... and i seriously want a gf... Its time to start looking... Eh wait i already am looking... Lol... But i refuse to settle for anyone whom i dun think i like enuff... So well, i juz gotta cont looking bahz... Chuizz...