Hmm... Guess ppl like Sy n Justin are gng to be much more dangerous with this piece of information.... Hehz...

All stats below are true and verifiable...

1. The number of doctors in the US is 700,000.
2. The number of accidental deaths caused by doctors are 120, 000 /yr.
3. Accidental deaths per doctor is 0.1714/yr.

4. The number of ppl owning guns in US is 80,000,000. (yeah, there's no typo...)
5. The number of accidental gun deaths per yr is 1,500.
6. The number of accidental deaths per gun owner is 0.00001875/yr.

=> Statistically, doctors are 9000 times more dangerous than ppl owning gun...

FACT: not everyone has a gun, but almost everyone has a doctor...

Hmm, came across this piece of interesting statistic today... Hmm... Wad do u think?

Finally, i cooked something... n yeah, i ate it...

Felt darn sianz these 2 days after i arrived... Fer some unknown but stupid reason, my lap top cant seem to use its wireless card... Cant detect any wireless network at all, n if u're living in CMU, tt means, u might as well go use ur lap top as chopping board liao... N despite asking my frens ard fer help, they oso dunno wads wrong... It really spoils all my mood, makes me dun wanna do anything except try to fix my laptop... I even tried formatting my harddisk to make it work... But as Murphy's law went, 1/2 way thru system restoring, i realised i forgot to bring the 2nd disk along.. Really screwed... Now cant even go window... Had to borrow my fren's Windows CD, but fer some reason, some files are not copied, n the windows seemed really weird... In e end, i brought this "sick" laptop to see its "doctors" in the school... Reinstalled again wif my newly bought windows, n finally after a few hrs, it was finally cured... Whew...

Felt quite gd to be at school again actually, despite all e whining n sadness i felt before leaving... At least, i'm having the drive to start studying again... N my courses dun seem too bad... Was really a great first day, other than the stupid rain which dampened my mood a lil... I absolutely hate it when water gets into my shoes... (reminds me of the song when smoke gets into my eyes... But nvm... just a digression... ) But well, i am getting the mood back... At least fer today... But wads even better than my mood is... I finally cooked in US... Ok, fer all u chefs or independent ppl out there, this may seem like nothing... But fer someone who's nv really cooked in the US b4, its really a big step lorz... Yeah... After bt 20mins of experimenting, yeah the final product is out... A huge plate of noodles, wif chicken n egg... colour looks gd... Fer a newbie like me, i'd say its not bad liaoz... Smells not bad too... But taste... Err... I hope i could say the same... Its not tt the taste is bad but rather, the lack of it... Yeah... Then i remembered, i added no salt, no seasoning, or even msg... But well, at least its healthy, i manage to convince myself as i slowly ate e fruits of my labor... But well, i can always try again tmr... YEah...

Saying Goodbye again...

Its never easy to say goodbye, n seriously, although its e 3rd time i'm leaving Sg again, but however, i still feel as reluctant to leave as ever... Guess i still cant get used to leaving my family n great pals behind... Haiz... Felt a tinge of sadness once again a few hrs before i leave my home, i could almost feel my tears coming out of my eyes again... But not this time... At least i managed to hold them back... I was kindaf overwhelmed by the sianness that enveloped me, I just hate to travel all across the ocean again... Ok, enuff of my grumbling, think i'm really too of a complain-king... Typical sgrean wun u say?

Well, for a consolation, the flight wasnt too bad at all... I slept 6 hrs from Sg to tokyo, another 7 hours from Tokyo to Detroit, n after minusing the times needed fer e meals, i spent another 3 hrs finish reading my Digital Fortress... Then it was Detroit already... Songz.. Then from detroit to pitt, i, err... Slept again... Haha... Wad a pig sia... But its gd to sleep, u never wanna stay up in a plane, trust me on that... U'll be really bored to tears lorz... But sianz, reached pitt just to realise that my laptop cannot detect any wireless connection.. .SUX big time... I'm e kindaf guy who cant survive w/out internet connection one lorz... Heng my fren can lend me his laptop fer me to type out all this stuff... Haha...

But well, no matter wad, i'm back to pitt... I must get used back to my old lifestyle, n not my free n easy lifestyle back in sg...
Resolutions fer e new sem:
1. Get gd grades with min effort... (some kindaf wishful thinking? Mebbe... But well, its always gd to have a hope within us... )
2. Play more soccer n badminton... n mebbe even tennis.. (Yeah, hoping to maintain a fitness regime so as to prevent some "ppl" from saying i'm fat e next time we meet... Grr...)
3. Have time to slack! n sleep... (ok, now this sounds really impossible, but well, i'm still hoping for it... )
4. Be able to get a gd sound system or hifi or wadever n sing ktv here... (sad to say, but ktv will be 1 of the main things i miss being able to do in sg... )
5. Basically, enjoy my next sem!

Innocence exuding from an sg waitress... Omg...

Went to MArina Square fer dinner wif a fren... Was deciding on a place to go b4 we went past this V*** T** restaurant... Well, we were really clueless as to where to go but this waitress standing outside the place was looking at us so sweetly and handing us the menu to take a look... I really bu she de to let her down so just took e menu so tt she'll feel gd... But of cos, i cant possibly go in n eat becos of 1 sweet waitress, (pls lorz, i not so hum sup one lehz...), gotta let my fren decide, dun want her to suffer becos of me... Lol...
But in e end, my fren wasnt too keen so nvm, we went to some jap place to eat... But we agreed... The waitress was darn cute... So in e end, we went back to the place fer dessert... Wad a nice fren... Always sparing a thought fer me... Well, we went back... N we could c the waitress beaming all over her whole face... Then when she seated us, she said in e most adorable tone ever, " I'm so glad you came back"... Wah, for a moment, i couldnt believe wad i heard... Asked my fren if i heard correctly, n yeah, she agreed... Hmm... But the innocence n joy exuding from that simple statement was really amazing... I would never expect to find an Sg waitress so sweet n innocent, or at least, it was e 1st time i met one... Yar... but nevertheless, the dessert wasnt bad, and so the trip back there was well worth the time n effort...

The reality u nv knew...

Just watched the movie, Perth: The geylang massacre... I must say its quite a sad movie, wif some funny parts in btw... Eh, ok larz, the language is not really pleasant, though funny... If ur name is called Chow, then pls go n watch... Else u'll really bang ur head on e wall fer not watching... But think it really shows some of the parts of society tt we've nv been in touched wif... There are many facets of life, each of us having been exposed to only a few parts, those parts tt we experienced b4... But do we really know bt the other end of society? The parts tt have eluded u since young... I dare not say i know, but the sad fact is, i dun even know how much i dunno... But 1 thing's fer sure, everyone has a dream, n we're all striving towards tt dream... Though deep inside ur mind, u do know tt the dream may be almost impossible for u...
The story is about a simple man, wishing only to retire in Perth, (which is coincidentally, my dream place fer my retirement too... Living in a lil farm, watching my grandchildren running over the big lawn... Wif a couple of cows n sheep... Enjoying the luscious pastures of green... Not e jungles in army time horz... ok back to the main topic) Shallnt go on n spoil everything...

But well, sometimes, think there is really a need for dreams, something to look forward to in this life of ours, something to give us the strength to move to the next stage... Like me, b4 i came back to sg, i envisioned all sorts of things tt i'll do n enjoy... Though err, in e end, as expected, i acomplished nothing more than slacking my time away... But i enjoy it, so who cares! Haha...

The world is so full of misunderstandings, everyone looking only from his own pt of view... If we could try to take a step back, n look from another person's point of view, we could then see that certain incomprehendible stuff could be understooded finally... What we think is best for others may not be best for them, but so long we have this in our heart, i'm sure tt this kind thought justifies the result... which although, may not be desirable... But well, we shdnt of cos impose our will upon others too, in fact, many ppl are much more capable of looking after themselves than requiring our help... We may however, be merely "used" by them... Ok, i admit its a lil strong, but well, there're really ppl out there who are lydat... At least i've seen some...

Here's a lil argument from a lil boi who spends too much time thinking...
All this cant be avoided, the world is selfish by nature... We are all selfish by nature, doing stuff only for our own good... Even when we're helping others, it is only to make ourselves feel good... Even ppl who sacrifice do it becos of themselves... Y i say tt? Well, say suicide bombers in a war... U may say tt they die fer their country, but actually, they die for themselves... They value their families more than themselves, n they take utmost responsibility for wad happens to their families... So in order to fulfil this role, they had to go to war... Else even if they din die, they'd be tortured by the thought of their cowardice, n so, they'd be better off dead, feeling satisfied when they died...

Ok, u may think e whole para above is crap, i dun blame u... After all, who wanna feel bad bt their actions, n think tt they are actually all selfish by nature? (there's a really nice subtle catch there, which links to e previous para if u can c it... ) Lol..

some thoughts... n something touching...

Hmm... Its normal to feel despo at times, but i always think tt we shdnt becos of our despo-ness, go n try to boost our self esteem n then, hurt others in e process... Really see no point... Man is selfish by nature, but yet, shdnt we try to exhibit consideration fer others too? Hmm... I dunno... Ppl seem to getting more n more selfish these days, doing everything fer they themselves only... Mebbe we shd take a step back, n relook at e stuff we do... Its human nature to put self in e 1st place, but this "self" notion may have caused u to hurt many ppl ard u... W/out u actually knowing, or maybe knowing but yet not really paying attention to it...

Just listened to some promo story for andy lau's new song.... Ok, u may say it sux, but i find it darn touching... Some parts i nt too sure too, but roughly...
There was once a married couple, the husband being a doctor who always had to work overtime becos of his job nature... Then becos of tt, he always misses his dates wif his wife... At this particular night, he once again had to miss a dinner wif his wife... Its e 58th meal, he owed her, wif her recording down every meal he owes her... Then she asks him to say the sacred words... "i love u"... But once again, he aint in a position to tell her, and just brushes it again... " ok, " the wife thinks, n once again, she records it down as the 108th time he din say tt to her... As usual, e wife deliver dinner fer him, wif him asking hsi wife to do tt, so tt she can be sure tt he is working overtime, n not having fun or wadever... Yet, just outside e hospital, a blue car crashed out of e blue, crashed onto the driver seat of the wife's car... N from then on, he can nv have the chance to ever say "i love u" to his wife ever again...

Well, sounds kindaf fictional, n due to my bad story telling, u may not feel anything... But the fact remains, everything in this world is transient, every banquet has to end, every moment cant be replicated... Treasure wad u have in e world now, ur family, ur frens, ur spouse... How many times have u non chalently said things tt may hurt them... Or mebbe, do things tt have disappointed them... N how many times have they forgived u... But when u realised that u've owed them too much, u may not have the chance to reciprocate... Everyone in this world has feelings too, Dun assume everything u have will be urs ferever, but rather, relish every single moment u have wif them... For u nv know when things will change... Forever...

At least i got to do something i set out to do...

Was feeling rather disheartened the previous weekend, cos i wanted to once again, be a fillial son n bring my parents out to eat... This time, i thought of the zheng fa steam boat at marina which i personally feel is not bad... As usual, we setted off on our journey then at the highway, i was like tmd! There's come carnival at marina south and we need passes to enter... Tmd! We went around trying to look for other ways to go in but yeah, as expected, it was a failed attempt... Had to settle fer 2nd best at bugis... It aint tt gd, but ok larz, still passable... Ate till darn full lorz, tmd, the next day gotta eat lesser liao.. Was darn full fer e whole day... Arrgh.. Only gd thing was e decent price of $10 due to its opening day... Darn suei lorz, tt time ring parents to suntec road block, then bring parents to marina oso road block... Its really tmd lorz...

But well, today! I finally brought my parents to eat steam boat at marina liao... HAha... N its really quite not bad... $12 with live prawns n crabs somemore... N wif a huge variety of "liao"... Soup base is nice, even e cooked food oso nice... Hmm, think it sounds as though i'm advertising on their behalf... lol... Ok larz, at least i accomplished something i set out to do in e holz.. As compared to all my other things i wanted to do... which none of it i manage to do... SAdly... too slack already how! Haiz, dunno how i'm gonna adapt back to studying life in pitt... Haiz... 1 more week plus left... Must treasure my remaining days!

Nothing much to say...

Today luck not too bad... Saw a chio bu on e way back home on bus... Lolz... N just nice, she sit quite near me, so can c 1/2 of her face when she turns to talk wif her fren, whom, unfortunately, is some lucky guy! Tmd... But well, she has long hair, cheeks a lil sunken, wif quite sharp features... Ok, dun think tt helped much... which started me thinking a lil... Hmm, is there such a thing as love at first sight? Eh, dunno lehz... I mean, i can immediately like someone becos she's chio but love? Hmm... I'm not so sure bt that fer myself liao... At least i know fer me, i gotta have e feeling b4 i know i like someone... hmm... yar... Eh, dunno wad to write liao.. tired lehz... tts all...

Wads important...

Just witnessed a fierce argument btw my aunt n uncle a few days back... It wasnt really anyone's fault, but rather, just a misunderstanding imo... Yet, both parties were darn fierce about it, n i felt so paiseh tt i was ard to witness it... Could c the fear n din-know-wad-to-do look in my cousins' eyes... But heng i had to go soon, n the aftermath was witnessed by my mum only... It really sparked off several thoughts, 1st thing coming into my mind was my awe of the lack of understanding btw the 2 parties... I mean comon, u've been married for like 20 yrs or more, n yet both parties cant be just a lil more tolerant or understanding towards the other party... Gives me the shudders when i think of it, 30 yrs down e road, me n my wife arguing (suppose i did manage to capture some ger's heart) bt something which is soooo insignificant...
Come to think of it, though we all tend to be attracted by physical appearances, but seriously, character is really wad's impt... Ok, i admit... I'm quite a superficial person, ferever on e look fer chio bus... But seriously, character's e real factor, yeah...

Think i'm now oso kindaf more prepared to go back to US too, wif ppl ard me all leaving again, i'm also kindaf influenced... Which's gd... Dun wanna have e miss home kindaf feeling when i leave, but rather, i wanna haf the looking forward to US kindaf feeling... Though i dunno wad's so fun bt studying, lolz... But still, at least there're badminton n soccer khakis over there... =) Something which i really enjoy doing over there... lolz... Sadly, liverpool just drew... Tmd... When they were playing better than middlesbrough... Gerrard played well, but missed a few chances... Baros, as i always feel, plays not bad... Cisse's a useless piece of thrash, he dxn do anything one lorz... cant even cross... And the 2 defenders are zai as always... though the keeper's very wobbly... Think dudek oso better than him lorz... Ok, enuff of complaints... I'm as usual, disappointed by their performance... hope i can c them win 2 premiership matches b4 leaving fer e states... i.e. they must win their next 2 matches! lolz...

Mood Change!

B4 u read, i apologise for the total change of mood... Mebbe a lil drastic i think... But ar, shdnt be tt bad... unless u read from top down... But then again, according to the way u're reading, u shd be reading this first... So it shd be the later entry tt u feel has a sudden change of mood... Yeah....

Ok larz, enuff of crap... Get down to the main topic... The stuff tt my thinking cap churns out... Well, for a start, i think i'm finally out of my depressing mood... the sad thought of having to leave this wonderful place i call home again... The sad thought of not being able to see my family again... As well as those wonderful bunches of ppl i know... But at least, i'm now getting mentally ready to get back liao... N the studying mood is kindaf back... Not totally, but at least 1/2 1/2... So mai hiam buah pai larz... LEts hope e other half will come after 2 weeks... Wait, did i say 2 weeks? Tmd... Its really so short ar... 2 weeks n tts all i've left b4 my holz end? Grr... But then again, come to think of it, my frens all kindaf start skool again, even those in us also already picking their books n reading a lil liaoz... Mebbe its time fer me to start? Hmm, i really shd... *Devil slaps me up*
Who am i kidding? Me starting to read up... Haha... Joke lorz... I have like several things which i'm suppose to do when i got back... Stuff like fixing up my desktop, or installing e new modem, etc... But yeah, here i am, using my lap top, wif my old modem... Haha... Me really too lazy liaoz... Haiz... Bad bad me... Which reminds me of the John Cena rap song... Who's him? Eh, he's from WWE... Wads tt? Well, to put it simply, its wrestling lorz... But talking bt him, he's one of my fav wrestlers... Darn nice bod... Not those ultimately big n bulky n flabby ones, but strong, fit, lean... My dream body... Which i'm still like miles away... Ok lar, i haven really been trying too, so cant really say much... Unlike some of my frens, who're like keeping fit n gng to gym... Haiz... N they're even gng to stick to a strictly healthy diet lorz... something i can nv do... I mean, comon lorz, food's one of the 3 loves of my life... Wad would my life be w/out this luxury? N of cos, i base all this on the belief that healthy food is nv tt tasteful... The best food can be healthy, but definitely not stuff like boiled chicken n veges... Arrgh, they're just not me... Shallnt even try to force myself on this diet...
Just had like oyster omelette, hokkien mee, cheng teng, sting ray, satay, n all e unhealthy food for dinner... Hiyohz... So bad right? But well, its sg... Sometimes, i shd chong3 yi4 chong3 myself... Else when i get back to the states, i wun get to eat any of these... so sad... Yet i still gained weight in US... from 155 lbs to 168 lbs... or rather, (13/2.2) kg... Can u beleive it? N i regret to report tt they dun come in e form of muscles, but rather, lipids... Paiseh, just cant bear to say out such a crude fact... Me not too willing to face up to reality at times one... yeah... *yawnz...* Well, think wo3 gen1 zhou1 gong1 you3 ge4 yue1 hui4 liao... So tata...

Someone said again...

Someone once said then whenever u say a "nvm", or "its alright", a drop of oil is added to a bucket in ur heart... When u say a "suan le bah", 1 spoonful is added... N certain events are just like dropping a cigar into tt bucket, n tts when e explosion starts... The mood just sways in n out, and even the smallest of matters may ignite this explosion... There is totally no justifiable reason for it, but yet it happens... U may be the coolest of ppl, but yet, there are times when u just gotta let it out...

Someone says...

A fren once told me tt nights are when ur thoughts come gushing into ur mind, they jsut keep flowing into ur mind, whether u like it anot... I've always dismissed it as something tt dxn happen to me, until the past week... Yeah, the me who used to be able to sleep anywhere, from the airplane to the greyhound, finally tio this kindaf stuff... mebbe its cos i sense tt e holz are ending, n i gotta go back to pitt soon... I've always aspired to be a useful person in life, but after this short break, i began to wonder y i am not born wif a silver spoon in my mouth... Y i cant just have a huge fortune to inherit, and spend everyday doing wadever i want... Without thoughts of having to study hard for a better career n future... Y cant i be born into a less "studying" environment, just simply enjoying myself all e way...

Guess its all gotta do wif the ending of holz again... but then again, many ppl are looking forward to gng back to US, while i'm kindaf dreading the days... Well, i've nv really been an independent person, nv liked to be by myself n stuff, but instead, bump ard n stuff... But in pitt, everyone's got their own stuff to do, everyone is so different from everyone... Compared to my past where everyone's so similar, doing e same stuff, hanging out at the same time, enjoying the same stuff... I really prefer tt life... But well, at least i got a great grp of frens wif me at US too, so i guess the effect of leaving home is really mitigated... But come to think of it, there's been many opportunities which i missed becos of this oseas thingy, wonder if its gd or bad... Have been doing lotsaf looking back recently, n thinking of all those missed opportunities tt i'm rueing now... But if i can rewind the past, i guess i'd do things the same way too... This is the path i'm destined to tread, n this is the kindaf person i am... Bo bian...

So now, the only thing left fer me to do is to try to enjoy myself as much as possible in sg, in US n in e future... Life is about enjoying, so i'm gonna make every moment count!