Balance...

Sometimes, no matter how bz u say u are, u'll still be able to finish all ur hw even if the lecturer just suddenly tells u tt there's an urgent hw due... N oh well, i'm darn heng i'm able to squeeze entertainment into my busiest week... Did hw just b4 the due date... Used to be darn scared tt i'm not able to finish them on time, but now, well, i just start the day b4 n at least i'm able to finish it on time... Been really relaxing for a few days, playing winning eleven,watching movies n piaing hw... Wonder if its really cos i finish my programming course, or is it just yet another delusion... Hopefully its for real, then i can foresee how gd my life will be, at least in the next 1/2 sem...

Having been here fer a yr or so, i just realise 1 thing very different bt the education here as compared to sg... In sg, the teachers demand respect n wadever... Here, the professors are more like just normal human beings teaching us stuff... At least for quite a few tt i know... they dun put on airs, dun act as though they're superior or wadever... As my philo professor was telling us the other day, he wants us to treat him as a fellow human being, same as us... We need not call them professor blah blah blah, but rather, u can simply address him by his first name... yes! Without any term or wadever... Calling them tt dxn mean not giving them respect but rather, forging a closer bond between us and them... N i seriously do respect them... Wonder if the professors in nus or ntu are similar, but at least, i know from sec school or jc, it has not been the case...

N btw, just something i simply gotta say... Finally, i managed to see 1 girl tt bears a lil resemblance to MISCHA BARTON... Yes... Can u believe it? Not the front view, (cos i nv c the front view b4) but from the side view, i'd say she does resemble her... I was stunned for a few secs, then recovered but of cos, stealing clandestine glances at her whenever the chance is there... Nothing wrong wif looking at a chio bu, as the saying goes, "yao tao shu nu, jun zi hao qiu..." Wah... I almost couldnt believe myself when i saw tt but yeah, of cos, mischa barton is still better.... Dreams are always better than reality, cos in dreams, everything is as u wanted... while life, sad to say, aint tt fulfilling...

Word of the day: Practicality... Does everything here exist because of some gain-loss relationship, or is there really altruism in this world...

nothing reallt funny these days, or is it cos i nv really take note....

Grove city again!!

Gave myself a 1 day off from work yday... Played soccer on fri night, then played dota after tt... Following which was a trip to grove city mall which i really enjoyed... Doing one of my fav things of all time, shopping!! haha... But this time, i really tried to control... Went to 3 shops b4 even buying anything lehz... Haha... Then i went to the next shop... A nice jacket wif 50% off... Eh... think no need think liao larz... Then it starts... But the best thing is still the adidas shop... i bought 3 pairs of shoes that are on discount... 3!! soccer boots for only 13.95!!! Where to find... Haha Adidas somemore.. Shiok shiok... Then to top it all up, i finally manage to open my wallet n spend money to buy something i really like... a leather jacket... Wheee.... I've been wanting a nice black leather jacket for dunno how long, n since i'm been feeling so stressed the past week, i think a gd idea is to chong yi chong myself, buying myself something i really like... Yeah... Haha...
But well, now is back to reality... but after this philo paper is due, i'd just be doing homework tts due on the next day until thurs... Where mid sem break comes... Yeah... Even though its only 1 day, but it kindaf signifies the end of 1/2 a sem... n the start of all the other midterms n wadever... At least for me, most of my stuff end on tt day... Now thinking more of like wad i shd do for mid sem break... Hmm...

Freaking lecturer fake me!!!

Feeling darn pissed after the finals of my C programming... wasnt really sure if i did everything correctly... Was one of the last guys to leave, n din really have time to check for errors... n yet its an ez exam... How come?

Cos my freaking lecturer told me the wrong things... Knn... Asked him if we could use str cpy then he say deep copy the node... then i was like huh? completed the task using str cpy... Then i deleted everything n re do... then i ask again, cannot string copy? He say can but u get 0... then wtf... Ok lorz... then i tried to do... n do... Copying the bloody pointer instead of the string... then well done... 1 by 1 everyone leave... except for me... Struggling n thinking of how to copy the freaking node...
Really felt darn sian... At 1 pt of time, i felt like just leaving n f***ing heck care bt the exam... One of the worst times i felt in examinations ever... Until the last min.. He was telling some student ,yes some student taking the exam tt his str copy was wrong... Then i asked agian, can use string copy? Then he say yar, else how to do... I was like... Knn... WTf... *all vulgarities came out of my mind at this moment* last 10 mins... I piaed everything out... Includding debugging my freaking code... Din even bother to check for minor errors in my code... Just finished, verified the solution, submitted n left...

i felt so cheated... No wonder everyone left so early... Leaving me behind, breaking out in cold sweat n stuff... But seriously, i've nv felt worse b4... Its not like me at all to want to give up n walk out... But for the 1st time, i was contemplating this thought seriously.... But oh well... Lets just pray nothing goes wrong...

Dunno if its me or wad, but just din feel like doing any homework after the ordeal... Was basically slacking away, doing those homework which i enjoyed, taking my time as i do... Instead of rushing thru everything again like the past few nights.. Which i had relentlessly been doing... All for the sake of playing dota on fri n going grove city on sat... But now, i'm kindaf sure i'll be gng shopping tmr... need to relax seriously... As fer dota... Lets just wiat n c how bah... Another new experience in life... Hope i'll nv experience that again...

No mood fer anything funny or wadever... So shallnt post any nice stuff... Sry...

Eeeee....

As if my days werent bad enuff...
Close ur eyes n imagine the following scene... U're currently in a 1/2 dead state, ur whole brain occupied by work... I.e. zombie-like... Then while u're walking to lesson... U c this... A guy in a light blue sweat shirt.... He aint very small size... N he's not really chinese or angmoh... (Must be careful when blogging nowadayz... Else u may.... So u get wad i'm trying to describe?) Ok back to the story... U are now looking at the guy walking in front... His right hand, waving from top right to bottom left... din know if he listening to music or wad, but his movements are kindaf similar to one of those mambo moves or wadever... Movements a lil weird u though... Then u try to look away... But the corner of ur eye caught sight of some bouncing stuff... his butt also swaying from side to side... N mind u... Its not a firm butt swaying, but one of those bouncy bouncy asses bouncing from side to side... ok, u're now fully awake...

Alright, i admit, tt was a lil mean of me... As if i'll look very good if i try to do those movements and shake my butt as i move... But i mean, its cos i know precisely tt i dun look gd doing tt so i refrain from doing it right?... Some ppl ar... Just dun have any self-conscious one... This is really sight pollution... Hiyohz...

Oh yar, would also like to thank all those who're concerned bt my well-being these days... Though i'm down n drained n almost out, but a simple word of concern really makes my day... thx... Another week n i'll be done... the next 1/2 of the semester will be better! (i hope)

Two ppl were conversing 1 day, n again, arguing bt which language is easier to learn...
A: Chinese is not an ez language to learn...
B: Yeah, jap is easier... In fact, even cantonese is easier...
A: No lehz, how can cantonese be easier?
B: Y not?
A: Cos u cant write out the words... unlike chinese...
B: ...

Need some bo liao stuff to spice up my life... So here it is... From Alan again...
Qian4 bian3 wen4 da2 ti2: raise ur right hand into the air, clenching ur fists... Then raise ur left hand into the air, with all ur 5 fingers spread open... Guess 4 words...



Hint: A type of ppl... KS shd belong to this category...

Philosophizing...

Guess that kindaf explains the main theme of today eh? Its all about me and my readings.. Can safely say i spend ard 3 hrs reading the material for my paper... Yes, its just reading fer my 2 digit paper... But being the shan4 jie3 ren2 yi4 blitzy, i shall not bore u n put u to sleep wif the boring contents of my paper... I've suffered enuff... Haha... But 1 thing about philo is that it always opens up ideas which u have never contemplated before... (If u want evidence, i can pass u the essays written by Sher, Marnefee, etc...) So i guess tts enuff to convince u to accept my hypothesis eh? Haha... Think tt in life, we shd always try to expound newer ideas and instead of passing things off as intuition or i think so, try to really provide a logical argument for it... U may jolly well realise that u may have been wrong about stuff after all...

Came across a lil thought just now... But b4 i start, lemme ask a qn: How much do u like to listen to gossip or bitch about others? If ur answer is not at all, then i beseech u to go the to next para... I dun mind admitting, i like to listen to gossip bt others, n sometimes bitch about them... (yar larz, its only sometimes, not everytime... ) But was just thinking, how many times have others also bitched about u? Criticising u behind ur back...
"U know that day ar... That xxx is really... She keep ... "
Wah, then i start to think on how i would bitch about myself... (Ok, tts quite bo liao... i know... but well, u do need a break from all those philo stuff) N amazingly, i can come up with quite a lot of stuff about myself... If say, another person behaves this way, i would probably have bitched bt him/her liao... Omg... Dun tell me that all this time there has been people... Arrrgh... Maybe i'm not really that person i thought i was... Or rather, i'm much worse than i thought i am... Hmm... grew really scared for a moment, but then, i decided that i had no time to think about myself... Philo hw more impt... So back i went... Then i realised tt so what if i am not the perfect person i hope i am? So what if i am the person whom everyone bitches about... There's nothing i can do about it too... I am me and that is who i am... So long i have a clear conscience, without doing anything bad or so, i shd just continue to be my happy go lucky self... Yeah...
So moral of the story: being too concerned about what others think would only stress urself out, just be urself and do things as ur heart direct... (eg. if ur heart tells u to gimme $100 then do so... Dun be afraid that others may say u are stupid... )

N oh yar... Just something to bitch about again... Sry, tts me... But this issue... Hmm... think better not be too exact bt it... Else later kena slammed... but main idea is we shd try to be considerate... Considerate meaning, putting urself in the shoes of others and thinking if u'd feel good that way... the world is not fair i agree, some ppl are smarter or have certain talents... But tt dxn mean u shd be above anyone... or have more rights than others... I'm sure u've felt left out at times n u dun like that... So... pls dun do it to others too... Yeah...

think many ppl have read my last entry... Some clarifications... Those are the general type of ppl i dun like... It DOES NOT mean tt if u just got to know me, u're in that category... N if u c me still treating u as a fren, it means tt i dun c u as those kindaf ppl... N 1 more kind of person i dun like... Snobbish ppl who think they're above everyone... Just becos u're rich or smart or charming does not mean anything at all... I dun give a damn... Eh... Ok lar, unless mebbe u're a chio girl, like mischa barton... then i'd give a few more glances... N mebbe tolerate u a lil... But there's only 1 mischa barton so the rest of the ppl out there pls dun think u're above anyone else ok? Kk end of story...

Hmm... Now getting tired... Cant remember any gd quotes... Except 1 from my ex-roomie... Maybe a lil cold... mebbe thats y its kindaf cool when i think of it now... Brr...
Me n Alan playing winning 11... We taking tottenham against biringham... Then Damon takes over Alan... the first qn he asks... "How come so much pork?" Brrr...

N talking bt pork... just include 1 for luffs... Being a sgrean, my pronounciation was being corrected again... i pronounce muslim as "mus-lim" but my fren was saying tt its called "mus-lam" here... the "a" sound not very strong though... Then we had a few exchange of words, then she said something like "cant believe u guys cant pronounce 'mus-lam' correctly... "
Me: "Huh? Wad did u say?"

Hmm...

Feeling kindaf slack these dayz... Din really work as hard as i shd have, n i getting to be quite bo chap about hw... Guess this might be cos i'm totally drained... But wait, i've nv been really drained yet... At least compared to all my peers, i'm not the xiongest yet... Did badly for my midterms... My definition of bad: Me doing worse than i SHD HAVE... as in in comparison to myself... I prefer to have a gauge of my own standard and then use that to gauge the performance i shd have put it...

N talking about definitions... There's been 1 thing i've wanted to say for a long time... Dunno if i've mentioned it in my previous blogs, but well, i just wanna say something about myself...
5 Things(or rather ppl) which make me irritated... not in order of any merit
1. Some bloody buggers who keep leeching off others...
2. Some stupid people who're so freaking sensitive until i dun even dare to talk to them...
3. Some arseholes who keep making empty promises and fu-yaning others...
4. Some sarcastic pokemons which just like to poke irritating remarks about others... ( not those in good manner but those meant to ridicule)
5. Some ppl who i just cant stand... (or rather, see buei song ones)

N guess wad... I've been encountering such ppl... Which totally pisses me off from time to time... but well, at least things are gng better now... N of cos, with many gd frens ard me still... Whom i really value... But sometimes, when u gain frens, u lose some too... In terms of the depth of the relationships... I think i may have neglected some frens this sem... But i've really tried to maintain contact... Even though we may not speak much, but to me, they'll always be good frens to me... I dun think there's a need to keep talking or wadever to make me feel tt we're close, but rather, so long its u, n i'm me, yeah, u're still a great pal to me...

Ok enuff of bitching... But if i dun bitch, wads there more to say? Hmm... Was thinking of mebbe writing down some great CMU quotes from time to time... Just to remind myself of the crappy stuff in cmu... N seriously, our batch has really lotsaf great quotes... Lemme try to think... Hopefully i can post 1 everytime i blog... whole brain full of macro econs, cant really think much... But lemme just post a quote from *ahem*... think he prefers to remain annoymous...

May not be exact replica, but well, idea is there...
Last yr fall... on a certain bus trip...
2 ppl were having some crap talk...
A: dui bu qi hor, wo bu jiang fu jian hua de( in chinese, eng means " sorry, i dun speak hokkien")
B: Wo ye bu dong hua yu... ( in chinese, eng means "sorry, i dun speak chinese too")
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Food FEstE!!!

The 1st major event in Fall kicked off to a good start... Glad tt there were many freshies who were also interested in chalking, (come to think of it, i've nv done it in my freshie yr b4... ) But well, the only -ve thing was that there're overly enthu... Chalking up all sorts of geeky stuff... Until i caught onto the fever too, chalking up all the mathematical stuff... Its really quite bian tai one, the amt of crap we manage to come up wif... Had no mood to really do hw those days, esp since after tues... Din feel like studying for optimization, though i knew i had to... Dragged n dragged until like 30 mins b4 mid term then take out book a while to read... No time larz... Still had to go help "process" the chicken for the chicken rice stall on fri... But glad i've been there, else think si yang would've really been quite jialat... Then, yeah, i think i din do too well for that midterm... Sianz... But at least, food feste itself was kindaf fun... Sh the Tariker... Making teh tarik... Dun play play... Though i have to admit, my QC wasnt too gd... Quite some variations of tea from those less sweet to those more milky... Haha... But nvm, come next time, i'll become more pro i cfm...

Sry i had to post some time after the event... Wanted to carry on writing on,but well, NO TIME!!!

Touched by an angel...

Just had food fest yday... but will post bt it later... For now, its more about this incident which was just so nice... As usual, the worse part of food fest was about clearing up n while clearing up, others were making plans for dota tonight at ard 7+ 8... Not really sure if i wanna go again, though i never minded dota-ing.. Then my good fren was like asking me if we wanted to go... cos he got car can fetch... then i ok lorz... Then he say we meet at the food fest place after we're done... He go eat something first... Then blah blah blah... Wanted to hang out differently on a friday for once so wasnt too sure on gng fer dota.. well, had a long exco meeting, which made me kindaf hungry... So even when stone called to ask me dota, i told him not to wait, as 1. the exco emeting aint tt short, 2. i think i'll go supper first... Then yar dar yar dar yar dar... Ended at ard 10+... Went down, called to tell stone to start first... Then was planning to go for supper when my gd fren called me again, asking if i am done... He has been waiting for me like since 8+... Omg... Its really one of those moments u feel super bad, bad tt u thought tt he left already but yet, he's still there waiting... N wads worse, he fetched some other guys to the dota-ing house then came back to wait for me... Arrgh... I felt darn bad... Din even call him or anything, just assuming tt... But well, i am really wrong... Assumption is the mother of all f***- ups... This i totally agree... Tts y i still feel, there's hope in mankind, In e end, no need to even think, of cos its still back to dota larz...