Saw an email which made me went back to the blog 6 yrs ago. N i must say, I really wrote a lot back then. Lotsaf crap n stuff, n some of which aint even funny.
N I really changed a lot from 6 years ago. I see my writing style then, and I see my writing style now. Its been a long 6 years, lotsaf stuff has happened. N I could distinctly feel myself changing, my thoughts, my personality, everything seems to have changed.

I feel different. I really do. When I hang out with Ronald, its just funny that things he say to me now used to be the things I would say to others. N I seriously do see a part of the old me in him, that romantic, very polite, nice guy who tries to make everyone happy. I seriously hope he can meet someone someday who would appreciate that niceness n romantic-ness.

Totally no mood to work. Just feel like going home.

Trying to come up with a list of people whom I shd meet. But sometimes, there are just people whom I dun wish to arrange to meet, though I wouldnt mind meeting if they org. Oh wells, screw them. I'm cool enuff with my family n close frens...

Wad a day.
Got to know 2 foreign girls today. Met on the starirs and they invited me to their place. 1 is from Hungary and 1 is from Brazil. Its really amazing how they just decided to leave their country and move to here. With a suitcase, some cash, and then they look for jobs and place to stay. It was really daring of them, I must say. The brazilian is really friendly, and she is a MEAT lover. The hungarian wasnt as chatty, but still cool. And they were telling me bt the great parties here. Maybe life here isnt tt boring after all. =)

Ronald once told me that if he had the chance he would want to fast forward all this time here, just like click. I asked myself the same qn, and I couldnt find the answer. But now i do.

I want to fast forward ALL my weekends w/out soccer. I dun speak during weekends, except the occasional 'Hi' to my housemate when I see him. I dun do anything except look into my laptop. In fact, even if there is some hot babe outside right now that wants to hang out, I'm not even sure I want to do that. If there is 1 thing I really want and have the slightest possible chance of doing right now, its asking for permission to go back to work during weekends. Cos as no life as it seems, that really is the part about my stay here which I do not want to forward.

Been watching '2 n a half men' for a few weeks now. N there was 1 episode yday when Alan just got married to some dumb blonde bimbo. N I started to think. N I actually think I would be able to settle for such a person. I dun really need to connect intellectually with my wife, I alr have intellectual frens. I just need someone simple, drama-less, conflict-less n HOT. Sounds to me that a vietnam bride might just possibly fit the bill.

Arrgh, the weekend is coming again.

The only good thing is, my date of return shd be confirmed soon. Its time to start planning what to do in SG. =)

I regretted not asking the waitress for her number the other day. I shd go back and ask her.
Now, the qn remains, who shd I go with? Hmmm...

Its always easier to appear emotionless. Its also always better. And I'm getting better.

To U: I might appear callous, but its for the best. I will still be there when u need me.
To U: I might appear cold, but its for the best. I will still be there when u need me.

I was walking along the streets. And my mp3 player popped up Nelly's just a dream. The same song which i listened on repeat mode during my train ride to Jw's place. I just visited pitt then, and everything from Uni does seem like a dream, other than the sg frens I've made. And now when the song played, I think I've almost sunk into the lifestyle here. Getting my pastry b4 work and after 5. Working till late. Watching every soccer match as though its the most impt thing in my life. Cursing at the shitty internet. Chatting with the crazy liverpool fans in the bar.

Iono, it just seems that I'm like in a totally different world now. And even though I dont enjoy myself as much as sg, but i am getting used to the loner lifestyle. Perhaps if I find someone n get married, I could even just settle down here. But of cos, all this is just a thought. And probably when I'm back in sg, this phase will be another dream for me.