Some things never change...

I am finding myself harder n harder to understand... Sometimes i really wonder who can really understand me... There are many times bt myself tt i'd like to share wif someone, but there are always certain reasons y i cant say it out to any one... Except maybe 1...

I get pissed off by ppl easily... Or rather, there are always certain actions tt manage to piss me off...
Everyone knows how i hate irresponsibility or lack of integrity... But i hate something more than all these... Inconsistency...
I.e. If u're a selfish person, im cool with that. Juz dun expect me to help u out. Similarly, if u ask me a qn, n i tell u the ans, expect me to ask u the same qn n u do the same...

Went to zouk twice in 2 weeks. Drank quite a bit on the first time... 4 of us had 11 jugs, + flaming lamborghinis... N i was seriously pretty high, n happie... Music was good too, n i had fun on the dance floor... Its seriously a good feeling to be able to juz dance to the music, feeling a bit light headed. I know its not good, but dancing seriously helps me to get all the stress shit out of my head... Guess ill be gng more often, the only qn is how to sneak back in late w/out parents knowing...

Starting work soon... N time will fly by soon... which might nt be a bad thing after all... Since i've been bumming ard so much, i feel that its time for me to actually start work... The nua feeling is getting to me, n i can honestly say tt im feeling much more sociable than when i first got back... Though i still haven looked up a lot of my old frens, i think ill do it soon... Feeling real bad to a few pals who keep asking me but i am always not up to it...

I almost always got things to write about everyday, but when the nite comes, i juz get lazy... Prefer to juz play games, chat, etc n no more mood to blog... so ill juz write a longer entry i guess...
Its quite different this yr and the previous times i am back... Frens ard me last time juz care bt having fun, but now, all the singles are looking for potentials... N many a times, conversations btw guys just evolve to talking bt girls... N then, it'll boil down to the inevitable part of comparison... About the fact tt we have very small social circles... N how i am better off than them when i actually am not... But i shall not spend the next 200 words saying y not... I know it myself n tts enuff... Guess we're all juz at the age when we have a sort of career going, N the next phase of life is actually dating n gng out... Think perhaps its about time i start to actively socialize more... N who knows, i might be able to help my good buddies out... :P

An interesting day

Lesson 1. Dun plan to lie bt anything, cos if u do, the lie might juz turn out to be true... N i do really need to learn about electromagnetics shit...

Settled most of my employment stuff today, including the division, project n everything... I tot micro e was useless in dso, but turns out, they do micro e stuff... They dun really do embedded systems stuff though... zzz... But oh wells, its juz a steeper learning curve... I'll juz go ahead wif the flow...

Hp was down since the afternoon, no wonder i received 0 smses... N i actually waited for a fren for nearly 3 hrs... Had some urgent problems @ work, so i juz waited... N waited... I cannot say i wasnt angry, after all, we din catch the movie cos it was over 40 mins before we met... But instead, i learnt how to be by myself... If it was a yr ago, i would have been at a lost as to wad to do... Cos i absolutely hated to be by myself, makes me feel as though im a loner... But today, i was quite cool wif it... Yup, i was bored but i wasnt feel awkward or shy or anything...

Guess wad i did to kill time... I bought a book to read... None of u ppl out there expect this rite? I mean comon, since when is shihong a book person... If i wasnt shihong, i'd have bet tt i would go home if i were to wait for 3 hrs.. Or even more extreme, call someone out to chat... But well, things change... I read the book for like 20 mins in the shop and then i decided to buy it n read it in starbucks... N yeap, i spent nearly 1.5 hrs reading it... But tts not all... I was actually quite engrossed in it until i nearly forgot bt the time... Tts not something tt happens to me normally...

N when my fren finally arrive, i was already quite cooled down... I mean, the past year has really trained my patience well... All the times i spent waiting for fren's reply.... Until the pt tt i wasnt mad tt my fren was late, but rather, just sian tt we couldnt catch the movie... N then i excitedly showed lr e book, the title is "Frenemies"... N i got a reply i nv expected... "I nv knew tt u are so..."

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"Metrosexual"

I almost died at first... But after some thought, it seems true... This is like the type of book tt girls read, n i hastily tried to explain myself... "But i think i shd try to understand girls more... "
But the more i try to explain, the more lucid it was... I couldnt bear to type out anything more...

For the first time in dunno how long, i visited my own blog today... N i read my entries... N i realised that at least i have 2 ppl who actually read what i write... N im glad... heh

Went to do some social work kindaf thing today... Was jioed by a fren... Was quite reluctant to go initially cos its 9 am in the morning, but well, i haf nth better to do, so y not... Its more of like an interactive session with the elderly, talking to them, n playing those grp games wif them... But though i talked to a few elderly, the communication stopped some time in the middle... Became more of like a waiter/volunteer rather than a friend... Dunno wad to talk about...

But wad surprised me was tt so many ppl are actually doing this... N they're quite friendly towards us new ppl... All so nice... which makes me start to hate myself... Conflicting? Yeah... Cos sadly, im actually not wanting to talk to any of them... Sounds quite wrong rite? But yes... Im like that now... So i juz "fu yan"ed a bit, n then talked to the 2 frens whom i already knew... I nv really used to be like this... I used to remember myself as being more sociable... Maybe its cos i see them as being the motivated, hardworking youth whom i can nv be... Maybe I feel old and jaded... Maybe i just feel inferior... Or maybe its just that i dun want to face up to the world i am in...

There are certain things tt i wanna do now, but i know it will sound totally crazy on my part... But i still wanna do it... So im promising myself ill wait for a few months first... N if i still wanna do it, then ill do it... =p Im always so good in deluding myself to make the "correct" decisions...

Movie review...

I actually watched a lot of movies over the last few weeks... From the highly rated iron man, to the (dunno y i wanted to watch it) incredible hulk, to the summer blast kung fu panda, then to the crappy get smart, will smith's hancock, and finally, hell boy 2...
I actually think that most of the movies were nice... which made me wonder why there are so many movies being released during this time...

Iron man is definitely good, one of the best superhero movies i have seen... Not just the plot, but also the intricacy of the movie... It has very cool features and details, which enhances the simple plot of ironman vs some big bad guy and then crushing it... And of cos tony stark is just so cool.. I wonder how things would be like if i had that money, and looks... *slurps*

Incredible hulk is somewhat different... It portrays him as a person who has suffered because he is the hulk, rather than glorifying the hulk himself... I actually like this different take on it... I mean, superheroes are always glorified, until the point that we all want to be a superhero. But after watching the hulk, u just feel that its good we're all just normal ppl... Maybe becos of the way the film is shot, its not as entertaining as iron man, but a good movie still nevertheless...

Kungfu panda really lived up to its hype, being entertaining and funny... Everyone shd watch it... Enuff said...

Get smart... Ahh, i would say that the film is all about steve carrell and his straight face humor... I personally enjoy that kind of crap/lame humor, so i find the $7.5 bucks worth paying... (yeah, i watched it on a weekday) N of cos the girl is quite hot too, though not really my type... Else at least i can have someone else to occupy my head... And of cos, if u're a fan of the rock/ great khali, u can go watch it too...

Hancock would be the worst movie among the lot i think... Superhero learning how to deal with his temper and ego... Typical... And of cos a very sudden twist comes along, but still not good enough to make the whole film watchable.. .Very different yes, not very entertaining... But Charlize theron is hot! The main consolation for me watching the film...

Hellboy 2 is one of my personal fav... I liked hellboy 1, becos of the humor and action... Hellboy2 is also about the action and humor, but it has better CG, and also a very cool villian in Prince Nuada... Haha... Best part was the scene of Hellboy and his sidekick, drinking beer and listening to barry manilow's "cant smile without you"... Quite an emo song, and i can actually see myself doing it... With... hmm... the mingyang 1 year ago... haha.... But still lotsaf cool action n some nice humor...

Perhaps im not used to all the gng out... But im sick... Yeah, i hate to admit it, but i'm sick... Down wif a sore throat, flu, n all the shit... Its been a really long time i have a sore throat, but all of a sudden, i juz kena a sore throat on sat... But i still went ahead wif the chalet, downing like 30 + satays... N all the fried food... Zzz... But monday was the worst, i was tired... Even though i slept until like 12:30... So unlike me... N i took an afternoon nap some more... But i was still tired... In e end, i was so frustrated tt i went to jog... N yeap, it was tiring but i pushed myself, until i couldnt take it... Was so freaking weak... But in a way, i actually enjoyed it... Not the feeling of weakness n straining myself during the jog, but the feeling after the jog... When i was like so dead but yet i know i'll not die... The kind of recovery tt makes me feel good... But tts me... Pushing myself to the limits...

Was gng to do it yesterday again, but frens asked me out, so wadever... N today, i finally gave in to all the naggign and took some flu medicine which made me even more tired... Slept till 1:30pm, woke up, eat, n slept from 4 - 630 again... But at least these few days have gotten me back to reality... Me actively settling my work stuff... Which i have put off for as long as i can possibly... But everything's almost set, juz need to look for my tuition centre... =p

At least a good thing came out of today... I heard quite a few gd songs from the radio, n i realised tt most of the pop songs are actually those emo rock type of songs, instead of my fav hip hop... But still, this song catches my ears, Fall for you by secondhand serenade... go try it... Strangely enough, the first person i think of when i heard of this song is not any particular girl, but mingyang... Yes... It just seems like the type of song tt he would recommend to me... haha... =p

It must be really surprising, but i have to say this... I actually wanna start work soon... Not cos im tired of slack-ing... Nor is it that i have nth better to do... but i finally realise the importance of $$$... Yeap, urs truly has finally woken up from his idea that life is a bed of roses, i do wad i want, i enjoy myself to the max, n $$$ will come rolling in by itself... N its really serious how badly i actually think i wanna earn more money...

Im not an investment type of person, kindaf risk adverse... So the only way for me is to actually pia more... Will try to work hard to get a higher salary raise (though thats almost impossible), or i'll try to do some sidelines to get my $$$ gng... Was planning to teach tuition, but dunno if its allowed... Or if i can even find anyone who wants me to tuition them...
My ideal life...
Mon:
8:30am - 6pm= work
After 6pm = rest (since its the first day of the week)

Tues:
8:30 - 6pm = work
6pm - 7pm= jog
7pm-8pm = dinner
8pm-10pm = tuition
After 10 pm = rest

Wed:
8:30 - 6pm = work
7pm - 8pm= dinner
8pm-9pm = Take some classes
After 9 pm = rest

Tues:
8:30 - 6pm = work
6pm - 7pm= jog
7pm-8pm = dinner
8pm-10pm = tuition
After 10 pm = rest

Friday:
8:30 - 5pm = work
5 pm - 6 pm = exercise
After 6 pm = Go eat sth nice wif frens

Sat:
Morning: Play soccer
Eat lunch wif parents
Go hang out wif my buddies for dinner

Sunday: Stay home wif family (+ perhaps 1 tuition sometime at night)

seems quite packed... But im actually looking forward to it... At least i will be able to juz go home, watch tv a while, n collapse on the bed... Better than now where im trying to fall asleep...

Anyways, here's a really cute song... Din like it the first time i heard it, but the tune catches on to me... So give it a chance, listen to it a couple of times...

Jay Sean - Maybe
(Verse 1)
Beep Beep Oh Look Now There Goes My Phone
And Once Again Im Just Hoping Its A Text From You

(Bridge)
It Aint Right i read your Messages Twice thrice Four Times A Night Its True
Everyday I Patiently Wait
Feeling Like A Fool But I Do Anyway
Nothing Can Feel As Sweet And As Real
As Knowing I Wasn't Waiting In Vain

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe Theres A Chance That you're
Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its AllIn My Head
Maybe *We're Awaiting* Words We Both Hadnt Said

(Verse 2)
I'm Always Connected Online
Hooked On Face Book All The Time
Hoping You've Checked My Profile

(Verse 3)
Just can't help wondering why you play it cool but I'm hopelessly falling for you

(Verse 4)
Every night Im on the phone and I loving you and I know you that you like it girl, now dont keep it inside what's in the night. No come say what your trying to hide.

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

(Bridge) x2
Like I really want you, I think I need you, Maybe I miss you, Im thinking of you

Chorus)
And Maybe Its True Oh (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
(Maybe Yeh)Maybe Thers A Chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong (Maybe yeh)Its All,In My Head (oh no)
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said

(Chorus)
And Maybe Its True (may be its true) Im caught Up On You
Maybe there's a chance That You're Stuck On Me Too
So Maybe Im wrong Its All,In My Head
Maybe We're Awaiting Words We Both Hadnt Said