I have seriously no idea y there are so many big mouths ard... I mean, why is there a need to go ard telling ppl tt i am helping XXX wif YYY... or wadever shit... When these ppl barely know me or XXX... Seriously dun get it... There is a reason tt i tell nothing, say nothing, n pretend nothing is wrong... N this is the reason...

Ok, maybe im being paranoid, but i simply simply hate it when ppl keep saying tt... Perhaps u guys dun feel it, but i cant help but feel tt there's a hidden connotation behind all those words... But wadever...

Closure

Finally everything's over... Or at least, i've tried my best to fulfil the aims of this semester... Now tt my family is coming, the old shihong is starting to come back too... N im glad... Now I have time to settle my own shit, which refers to my proj tt is due tmr... No need to worry bt anything else...

Was talking to my sis yday... N we realised how similar we are to our parents... My sis inherited all my mum's mood swings... which is a reason y they always clash... While i inherited all my dad's patience... the "suan le" mentality, we get pissed at times, but after some time, we'll juz let it go... Perhaps thats the only reason y i've been so persistent n tolerant this sem towards her... In fact, i can finally understand wad my dad's been through... I still remember the times in the car when he tells me bt how much he has "ren"ed... I can see that but i dun really understand it at that time... Juz tot tt he's a very noble dad... But now, i think i can finally start to feel wad he's been feeling... Sighs... N its all finally coming to an end... But no matter wad, i've nv regretted it...
Its juz an experience...

Talking bt something else, there is something else i juz realised... I think i have more guy frens than girl frens here, but i think im actually closer to my female frens than guy frens... My guy frens are almost all sg guys, but my female frens are almost all NOT sg girls... Weird huh... I juz realised tt when i was planning my final schedule before i leave... But think they're real great frens, n im really glad i got to know them... N for the first time in this sem, i can say 1 reason i hate leaving, is i hate leaving all my friends behind, and knowing the fact that i'll almost nv see them again...

I prob will nv say this to u guys in person, but sorry to all my frens who have always been there for me this sem... I really appreciate it... Hope its all not too late...

Its 1 am... N im having a headache... Tts y im still not in bed... Hope it wun be as bad as the last time...

Im really glad to have frens who care... N im really trying hard to get over it... Or at least show signs of getting over it... But its hard... Maybe tts y i am now yearning to go back to sg... At least i know, it will definitely be easier in sg... More distractions... More commitments... Less time to spend on thinking... N i juz hate typing the word thinking...

Oh, sth exciting happened today... I watched a chinese drama serial.. Its really nice... Haha... Im juz hoping to get all 40 episodes then i can spend this 2 weeks watching it... Yeap, back to the days of gymming n watching chinese drama serials... Ahhh... Ok, im feeling much better now... Or rather, the feeling of the old shihong is coming back... =p

Juz to end off this post... I know its kindaf random n prob dxn say much.. As my posts always are... N in every post, there's always juz a subtle hint of the thing tts on my mind... N enuff of me being naggy, here's the lyrics of the day...

Leona Lewis: Bleeding Love
Closed off from love
I didn’t need the pain
Once or twice was enough
And it was all in vain
Time starts to pass
Before you know it you’re frozen

But something happened
For the very first time with you
My heart melts into the ground
Found something true
And everyone’s looking round
Thinking I’m going crazy

But I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

Trying hard not to hear
But they talk so loud
Their piercing sounds fill my ears
Try to fill me with doubt
Yet I know that the goal
Is to keep me from falling

But nothing’s greater
Than the rush that comes with your embrace
And in this world of loneliness
I see your face
Yet everyone around me
Thinks that I’m going crazy, maybe, maybe

But I don’t care what they say

I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....

Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
I keep bleeding
I keep, keep bleeding love
Keep bleeding
Keep, keep bleeding love
You cut me open

And it’s draining all of me
Oh they find it hard to believe
I’ll be wearing these scars
For everyone to see

I don’t care what they say
I’m in love with you
They try to pull me away
But they don’t know the truth
My heart’s crippled by the vein
That I keep on closing
You cut me open and I....