Home Sweet Home...

Finally i'm back in Sg... The first moment i stepped into my house, it just seems as though i've nv really left it at all... Everything's so familiar, n i just routinely went to grab the lock to pass to my dad who's the one in charge of locking the door... Just like the old times... N as i went to my room, everything's exactly the same as i left it... My bed, my arm chair, my table... N even my Fortress Maximus standing guard faithfully beside my bed... Haha... Felt really glad to be back, cant wait for 2 more years where i can finally be back at home... N of cos, the food's always great as usual... Shall stuff myself with all the delicious food this week, b4 my attachment starts... N of cos, try to do all the things i wanna do... Too bad many of my frens are bz wif work n stuff, so must wait till weekend or fri night b4 i can meet up wif them... but oh well, i'm starting work next week too... Eh wait, i AM starting work next week... Oh shucks... Tts so fast... Arrgh... Kk, better start making plans for the whole of the week liao...

DisneyLand!

Went to Tokyo Disneyland today… Well, to a person who dxn go overseas with his family like me, its really quite a sight… Nv tot there could be so much to Disney, n the size of the theme park is really amazing… But its even better to be able to make our way there by ourselves, or rather, I managed to navi the whole family there w/out any errors… Haha… There’re really quite a lot of rides and a lot of those cutey sights… To take photos with and structures to take pictures of… There’re even Disney parades similar to Chingay, but much more beautiful… We managed to catch like every parade too… But the main reason y we cant tour Disney land in 1 day is more of the long waiting times associated with the rides and tours… We took only a few of the rides, some others involved waiting times up to 1.5 hrs… Cannot larz… Somemore the sun so hot, even me who wanted a sun tan also cannot tahan haha…

Finally noticed/understood some other points…
1. On a Thursday afternoon, there’re like huge bunches of school girls n guys, secondary/middle schoolers… Dun ask me y…

2. I finally understood where all the pretty girls went… N the handsome fit “yang guang nan hai”s… Helping out in Disneyland theme park! I think I finally see a real yan daoz over here in Tokyo after like so many days… But they dun come alone, the helpers there have like good tans, nice long hair, n look fit… Typical Shuai Ges… And the girls touring are well, hmmm, quite not bad… Haha… All with some make up, but sadly, the guys whom they’re touring with are a lil err…

3. School kids are real rich… I see them buying so much Disney stuff until I oso jealous… 10000 yen is like nothing to them, they all take out 10000 bills to change when buying stuff… Tts like 100 USD or 150 SGD… Japan really has high standard of living… Cant compare with Sg… Or more likely, to Sg kids like me…

4. I feel so old… I am like not at all enthusiastic about taking photos with Mickey or Donald, while my parents are like, “go and take” all the while.. And yeah, I’m the one who’s like “no need take larz” while the rest of my family are like” Lets take” … Yeah… I’m so off… Feeling so old… Haiz… Maybe next time when I have kids then I’ll be more enthu… Till that time then…

5. Its not gd to be in a country where u cant understand the language… During a canoe trip, the guy leading the boat was like so enthu n funny (n yes, he looks quite gd too…) Everyone was like luffing at his jokes, while I am like luffing along because everyone else is doing it… Can tell he’s really doing a gd joke, but its such a pity I cant really understand it… N if possible, can anyone tell me wad does “Ko Dae Sai” means? Everyone seems to be saying that…

6. N guess wad, I saw a someone who really really looks like Mingyang… The back view I mean… The back, the hair, the built, etc… I really thought its Mingyang… Then I walked past him n looked back… Not surprising, but he aint Mingyang... N sry but he aint Takeshi Kaneshiro either… Just some normal jap guy on the street…

7. Went to the same sushi place as yday, n I must say its really really good.. The salmon is real fresh, I think possibly one of the best I’ve ate… Comparable to Todai… N its only like 130 yen, or rather, 1.3 USD or 2 SGD… It may not sound cheap but in Tokyo’s terms, its really quite cheap… The old chef making the sushi as we eat recognize me already… I asked for 1 plate of Salmon n he was like making fun of me… 1 more? 2 more? 3 more? But yeah, I did ask for a total of 4 more plates, though I asked for 1 at a time.. Haha… N I met one of the possibly most attractive girls in Tokyo… Dun think she’d be tt attractive to most others, but cos I think she’s the type of girl which I really like… (in terms of looks) She looks exceedingly similar to Sammi Cheng, but she dxn really put on make up, n is a lil taller n leaner… Darn chio lorz… I cant really believe my eyes when I first went to the Sushi place… N her voice is not those cute, high, kawaii kind, but on the contrary, she has a deeper n (imo, sexy) voice… Esp when she says Ai Ri Ga Too… Wah…. But too bad, she hasn’t been especially friendly to me like the old chef, sianz… But I shall psycho my parents to go there again tmr, I’ll make sure she notices me… Muahahaha… Ok, tired liao, think I shall go to sleep n hope to meet her there…

1st day of Japan!

Some remarks bt Japan
1. Everyone is so freaking polite... They keep bowing n saying thank you...
2. Everything here is so ex lorz... N u thought US is ex, but nooo... Everything's like a few thousand yen...
3. The dress sense here is darn weird... U can c ppl wearing suits n riding on bicycles, quite comical...
4. 1/2 of the ppl here wear suits, 49.9999% dress happeningly, n the rest wear polo Ts from Old Navy...
5. The streets are really quite clean, better than Sg... cfm...
6. Girls here arent as "chio" as wad most ppl would think... Ok, there are chio ones, but only a handful... Still prefer Sg... hehz...
7. N fer some strange reason, girls wearing uniforms have shorter skirts than girls who are dressed casually... Now i know y guys in schools in japan dun do well in class... They concentrate on the wrong things in class...
8. guys here are really thin... U go to those departmental stores, the menekins are all those thin thin slim kind, i feel so over-sized...
9. Food portions here are a little small... Just a lil...
10. I hate gng to a foreign place where no one understands u... or to be more exact, u dun understand everyone...

Leaving on a jet plane... Again...

Had lots of fun over the past few days... Managed to complete all tt i wanted to do, badminton, dota, pool... Thx 2 the msians, sy, stone n gang, prissy, etc... Only soccer was left unfulfilled but at least i watch the CL finals, so still not bad... But all these activities now make me dun wnana leave here... I guess its becos after 1 yr, i kindaf got used to the life here, with all the great pals i had here... Makes me unwilling to leave n go back to Sg... yes... I'm not kidding... But i know tt although i feel like this, when i reach sg, i'll think differently again... N after 3 months, i'll be not wanting to come back here to US... Tts sooo me, always trying to resist change... haha...

Wondered how my frens in sg have changed over the past year... But yeah, i think i've changed too... But maybe you can tell me more when you all see me in Sg... Haha... Life is just so full of constraints... Its really hard to get a grp together, with everyone having their own constraints n stuff... So treasure the happy times we have together, they'll not be here forever... Its kindaf saddening to think how time flies... I'm already 22 years old, YES... without me realising it... A few more yrs of freedom n i'll be settling down, n before i know it, i'll be like my parents when i was young... Now tts scary...

Had a talk with a fren a few days back... Some guy who's older than me by a few yrs, but yet still enjoying his singlehood... N he was actually telling me tt its not tt he dxn want to settle down, but he belongs to the more "hua xin" type... So even if he has a gf, he may still be bored... So the way out, would be finding a gf at an older age, and settle down asap so tt he'll be tied down and wun have a change of heart... It may seem like a way to tie him down, but if he's forcing himself to settle down, wun it seem a lil unfair to the other party? Hmmm...

finals are over! but hmm...

Finally, the sem is officially over... Had my last exam yday, which was as again, harder than expected... I thought the first one was bad... but the 2nd one was worse... Then i thought tts it, but the 3rd one yday, wah, super drainer... I think i've grown like 100 more strands of white hair after that, with a few more wrinkles too... But now tt its over, its party time... Ok, not really party as in party, but more of like relaxing and enjoying myself... N yeah, u guessed it... Went to play dota after exams... Haha, but dun say i no life, but there aint really tt much things to do in pittsburgh ehre... Really lorz...

Now that i am actually going home, i think of my family again... I speak to them every week, but now tt i actually think of it, time really flies... My parents are getting old liao, n my dad i think he also getting old too... Not tt anyone told me or wad, but i somehow can sense it... Dunno if those who are reading this entry now can share my sentiments, but somehow, i just feel nostalgic... Feel sad... Ur parents groom u up, put in so much effort into u... Then now u're not ard them, and having them to worry about you... And somemore, by the time u go back, u gotta start ur career, gotta start working hard for the future... N if u're having a gf or bf, where got time to really pei them? I dun think anyone can possibly understand how i feel now, its juz a kindaf sad fact of life... Dunno y i kept thinking bt my dad too only, n not my mum... Perhaps cos she still sounds the same, while i just feel tt my dad has aged... ... ... ...

STupid me...

Juz finished my 2nd final today... N it was darn hard... Ok, i din study enough for it, but, who does? Its so much material n so much stuff tt can possibly come out, not to mention the fact tt the prof spent only like 1 or 2 lects on the most difficult topic... the qn which killed many of us... Seldom do i have finals tt i dunno how to do the qn one, n somemore its those kind that i dun even know where to start... This was supposeto be my "safe" subject, but now, even 70 is hard to get... Hope tt he'll curve or mark leniently... Shitty...

The 1st final was out on tues, tts like 1 day of marking... Freaking efficient lorz... but ya, its the CS department, they always grade darn fast one... Then my frens all tell me their scores are out n i just had to go n take a look even though i'm studying... Was thinking tt 110 is a safe estimate, which gives me my A probably.. .So went to take a look... But its not there... I asked around but everyone's scores out.. .So i thought it must be my stupid TA who haven put my scores out... But when i checked with a fren who's in e same recitation, his scores out liao too... So i was like hmm... Weird... then i saw an email form the prof, asking who din write his name on his paper... I was in a bad mood and was like asking, who's this joker who can forget to write his anme down... But my frens went huh? Got this email mehz? I was like err... ya... tt joker must be me... Ooops...

That final turns out to be kindaf bad though... Very bad in fact... When i came out, i knew i had 2 big qns wrong, but i aimed for partial credit, n got it... but the other easy qns i had like 2 marks off 2 marks off n arrg.h... Yeah, u get the picture... N now i'm living on the edge... Need 193/200 for my 2 labs to get an A... i completed the labs, i.e. got full scores for them, but there's like 35 marks out there which is given by the TA... But my TA is so freaking arrgh... He's juz irritating... Keep minusing marks for lil stuff... Hopefully he can be lenient for once n minus me the traditional 1 mark instead of anything more than 3... Pls... *praying*

1st final... Finally over...

The toughest final is finally over... After having spent almost like 18 hrs in the past day + today mugging fer it... Made a very bad decision to stay thru the whole bbq on saturday, n play volleyball there too... shdnt have been so playful, had a darn bad time yday mugging... Seriously had a shortage of time lorz, which seldom happens to me... N i slept fer only 4 hrs b4 the final, something which i dun do at all... Always believed in having more sleep but well, this time its different... Had a very bad lack of time... Haiz... But no pt crying over split milk i told myself yday, only way is to try to study as much as possible... The exam today wasnt too bad,at least i could understand the qn... it aint tt easy, i dunno how to do many qns too... Hoping for partial credit and leniency in grading, i really dun wanna because of 1 bad mistake (playing on sat) n result in my whole sem of hard work go down the drain... Was constantly nervous about the final, but after some practice yday, i felt better... Think i really am those kind who learn thru making mistakes in papers n learn thru looking at corect answers n figuring out wads wrong... No pt just reading n reading lor... Now tt its over, i can only pray...

These few days keep gianing fer KTV... cant wait to go back Sg mann... n of cos, not forgetting the shopping, soccer, LAN, n hot babes... Went for a hair cut today too, but think it was kindaf bad... But after 3 weeks, i'll be looking as good as ever when i reach sg once more... ("yeah right... since when did shihong ever look good?" u'd prob say) But at least dun wanna let my parents see my haggard face, at least shd look as bright and fresh as possible when i c them in 2 WEEKS TIME!!! Woo~hoo...

N if u're asking for anymore thoughts on bgr... My only response is: Now exam liao... shd conc on studies!

BBQ thoughts...

Had a BBQ today... WAs suppose to be in charge of the logistics, but well, i was too occupied wif work n had a few screw ups... Kindaf sad bt it... Misjudged the amt of charcoal needed, but heng, we had a driver to go get it... Heh... N of course, some communication errors which i was totally kindaf like "huh?", u actually meant THAT, not THIS... Hmm... Haiz... But guess it was ok in the end...

REalised that i have a very different style of doing things from others... dunno if its gd or bad... mebbe those who've worked wif me can tell me bt it... really want to have good genuine feedback bt myself... bt how i work, whether its gd or bad or wadever... but if i'm really tt bad, then pls dun be too brutally honest bt it... Haha... But yeah, i really need to know more bt myself... Feeling kindaf very unconfident bt myself now...

N yeah, here's the thinking bt bgr part again... Think i'm feeling too lonely nowadayz... All alone by myself n stuff... Time to get a gf... U're right... if u think tts wad i feel, then obviously u dunno me well enuff... But sometimes, i was just thinking... Is it ever ok to break up a relationship? Hmm... Like telling someone who's attached tt u like her or wadever? I always think its wrong, but after some "incidents" i start to change my view... Hmmm... Its nv wrong to fight for what u want, n i pretty sure tt most people would appreciate pppl telling them they like them even though they're attachd... but if another guy tells u gf he likes her, n starts chasing her... How'd u feel? It kindaf boils down to the individual i guess... though i know for me, i'll prob be cursing that guy n planning on how to gunny sack him... Haha... j/k... Ok, think tts the BGR thoughts for the night... Shall get back to complaining to my nagging buddy... n seriously thx to her for always listening to my nags... Hah...

Missing a dota session...

Yeah... I think my frens are playing dota... N fer once, i'm not there... Haiz...how can dota be fun w/out the ever lovable i[nf]aTuaTe? Hiyohz... But really canot... Tmr gotta prep fer ssa bbq, n now gotta stress over my finals on monday... Quite worried bt the BBQ tmr... Cos seems tt still got some stuff unsettled... Partially my fault too, cos i was kindaf busy wif work n din ensure that everything was well... Haiz... But hope everything will be fine tmr...

Have been feeling quite sian these days... Finals is coming... i'm feeling stressed... But i cant just sit down n study... Always got some irritating stuff coming along n making me pissed... Like my last programming assignment, i spent like toones of hours commenting n checking for return values... Though i finished it early, in the end, i spent like easily another 8 hours on it doing all the minor crap stuff... Haiz...

N guessed wad... All the talk bt finding a gf got me started dreaming tt i got attached... To someone i know lorz... Darn weird after i woke up... Dreamt that the "she" told me she like me n i told her tt too... Then ... Anyway, its juz a weird dream... "Ri you suo si, ye you suo meng"...