Spain finally won! Im really happie for them... After all, i supported them wholeheartedly right from the start of the tournament... They have such great players, play such smooth football, its really sad tt they nv won any major trophy for 44 years... N to make it even better, torres scored the only goal! N as usual, after he scores, his name is all over the papers again... The same papers tt were critical of his performance thus far, suddenly changed their pt of view and heaped praises on him... Sighs... Its always about the results...

but now tt euro is over, my life is once again plunged back into nothingness... Hmm, i need to find a hobby soon... Or start work soon... ;(

3 weeks of euro...

Sometimes i juz cant help but notice the bias in how results justify the means... When ppl talk bt soccer, they would do everything they can to justify the score... Take for example, Holland vs Russia... Holland wasnt playing like shit, but its Russia who seriously played very well to their strengths... N u have the media criticising this n tt... Same for Italy vs Spain, U talk bt Villa n Torres not being able to score, but Italy really defended well... Kudos to them, n stop the talk bt the strikers not scoring... And lets look at the penalties... 2 ppl missed for Italy, De Rossi n Di Natale... But everyone is talking bt how Natale missed the penalty cos its the last one... No one ever blamed De Rossi for missing too... Similarly, for spain, 3 other ppl also scored, but it seems tt fabregas gets all the credit for being the one who scored the decisive one... Why are ppl always basing their judgements on the last goal, and not the other goals that lead up to the result...

Some things are hard to do... But its even harder to try to do it alone, or rather, to try to do it w/out talking to anyone bt it... Its hard to be strong, but its even harder to pretend to be strong... N tts y i enjoy my moments in the gym or on the track... I've really done my best, by avoiding everything, but im still such a failure...

I get a feeling tt stress is slowly building up on me... Nv knew family shit can be so shitty... I may seem to be totally absolved from family stress, but its juz cos i dun show anything... N its not something i can tell anyone... Maybe there is someone, but, iono... Its like a balloon being constantly pumped, there will be a day i finally burst... Sighs...

Day 7...

Lakers lost... I dun usually watch bball, but recently, i've been watching the lakers play quite a bit... Dun ask me y i like them.. Maybe its juz cos of kobe bryant... hopefully they'll win the next game... But its really nice to see the team gel together, and not just depend fully on bryant... I also like derek fisher and paul gasol... Fisher makes good steals and shoots well... Gasol links up wif bryant very well, makes it really nice to watch...

Been following up a lot on liverpool transfer news too... They seemed to be linked to so many players... Gareth barry is almost there, then there's milner, bentley, quaresma, even david silva... And the problem wif them is, they always buy those average players and hope these players become very good... But its simply nt gng to happen... Instead of quantity, they shd juz go for quality... Get 1 good winger on the right... Winger meaning someone with pace, who can beat defenders, get crosses in... I seriously hope they get someone good this time, not juz any average winger...
Quaresma and Silva both have nice videos up on youtube, and certainly impressed me... But there is always the problem of liverpool overhyping their players... Which makes me zzz...


Juz realised where i inherited my stubbornness from.. which is causing me a lot of problems... but also making me understand some things tt i nv seem to c in myself before...

Another 2 days passed... Or was it 3? Couldnt really keep track since everyday is almost the same... N im still jet lagging, will feel immensely tired at ard 12... And will juz concuss into oblivion...
Met up wif a few relatives, or rather, my uncle came over to my place... haven seen him in a yr, n he has really changed... Feel tt he seems older now... Used to be quite close to him when i was young, gng to eat beef noodles and watch movies wif him on thursdays... But haven really talked to him in recent years, maybe cos i grew older and din visit my grandma tt often... But i found tt it seems kindaf hard to really talk to him, as in, i dun really know wad else to talk to him about, other than me juz graduating and gng to start work soon...

My sis has been telling me that for some weird reason, she does not want to meet up wif frens n go out... N to be honest, im experiencing the same thing too... 1 reason is, i am running out of topics to talk to ppl abt... Let me try to guess the top 2 questions ppl will ask me...
question #1: Hows US? Will u miss it?
question #2: When will u start work? Looking forward to work?

N as usual, i'll give the standard answers...
Answer #1: Its ok... Maybe...
Answer #2: Dunno... Dunno...

To be honest, im at the stage where i dun wish to talk bt the past... Nor do i wish to talk bt the future... If there's something i will wanna talk about, its about the present... But the present consists of nothing... So there's nothing to talk about... Only exception would be Euro 2008...

Went to gym today after quite a long period of laziness... N there are actually quite a number of ppl in it... Most of whom are young kids tt i nv see before... Ok, maybe not young kids, but more of army or pre-army guys... But i look at them, n i feel old... It wasnt too long ago tt i was in tt gym, wearing my army pt kit, n working out wif my frens... n now, sighs... time waits for no man... Perhaps time really changes things... My sis has changed... More stubborn, but also more understanding... My parents have changed... More naggy, n more wishing me to do things their way... Or maybe its I who changed... My way of looking at things, my ideas, my principles... They all seem to be different, and they clash with my parents... But i dunno how to tell them tt i am different.. That i am no longer the same lil boy 4 years ago... That i am not as perfect as they think i am... That everything is not as simple as the way they envisioned...

W.e.

Day 4 in sg...

Ran out of titles, so juz used some lousy title...

I must say, im really getting used to my sg lifestyle... Its really almost as though im always here... I wonder if my frens think i've changed... When u're at 20, u do things differently from when u're at 24... When u're 20, u avoid problems, avoid stress... When u're at 24, u face up to problems, and u are actually used to stress... Maybe tts how i changed... N then i look at ppl who are 20 n they act the same way as me last time... Now im starting to understand more things...

These few days have been rather peaceful for me... I've been having quite some time to myself, doing everything i want to do... Now, its time for me to do more things for the family, less for myself... Parents are getting older, i shd really try to spend more time wif them... N when i look at my sis, i realise how good a sis she's been to me... I shd really spend more time wif her before she starts mugging like mad n i start working... Well, at least that's something to occupy me with...

Juz finished watching the hk drama "tang xin feng bao" ... Its really a very nice show bt a huge hk family and how it split up due to the fight over the family's fortune... The main reason for discord, they compare how they're treated to how others are being treated and thinking that they have been unfairly treated... Everyone only focuses on the times when they are being mistreated, but nv the times when they are being treated better... If only we can just let go, and try to see things from other points of view, we'd be happier...

The beginning of another phase...

My college life has officially ended... N im back in sg... Graduation wasnt as bad as i thought, and with my family there, its really easy to juz move on back to the life in sg... I knew i could adapt to life in sg, i juz din want to leave US... But well, i did that, and im now comfortably sitting in my chair, typing all this out...

Went out yday, n im really pretty much amazed at how familiar everything is... N how quickly i can fit back in... Met tj jm pc yday, went for a drink... It was pretty nice to meet up wif frens and drink, but i still dun understand y it must be over beer... I guess im still pretty much a coffee fan... But dxn really matter, its the company tt counts...

Had a nice talk bt life, and also bt how much dota affects it... Everyone's asking me to quit dota... But until today i dun c the point... I mean, if i have nth better to do, might as well play right? But there comes the argument of dota over frens/girls.. which might juz make me become an anti social gamer... Maybe, but i know tt if there's a need, i'd give up dota for my frens... I still remember the first time i intentionally quit a game... I used to hate leavers, but i became 1 myself... A couple of times actually... all for the same reason...

Been watching a lot of hk drama recently, and i think it makes me take a step back to examine myself, and my actions... A fren asked me if i regretted doing anything last sem... All i can say is, i juz wished i had more time for my frens, n less time for my mood swings...