Hmmm...

Feeling real sian over my hampstring injury... It practically makes my life a whole lot more inconvenient and makes me have nothing to do... Cos the lz me refuse to spend 45 mins crawling to school or anywhere else... N the stingy me refuses to pay the $7 for parking... N the egoistic me refuse to let ppl look at me wif that sympathetic look in their eyes... So ya, i juz stayed at home as much as i can, or juz hide somewhere in school as much as i can...

It was real nice to talk to an old fren today... Someone whom i thought was a really pleasant person to talk to, but somehow, due to our time differences and her absence from msn, we din talk... But the best thing bt today's talk is, i wasnt not the "me" today, but rather, i was simply the old me... the me 2 years ago... That happy-go-lucky, nice guy... That guy who was really confident n optimistic bt life... That guy which seems to be such a great catch... What happened? It all boils down to 1 word...

Im behaving the way i am becos i believe tt life ends when i go back to sg... But in actual fact, its the beginning of a new life... Sadly enuff, i doubt i can ever invest as much as i did over here, but well, i guess it'd be much easier...

But MY is rite... B4 u do anything, consider the future repercussions....
Here's my ans... Everyone has various degrees of feelings in life... Some feelings are but of the past... And some actions are, but of the past... But the important thing now is the present and the future... If the past cant be accepted, then so be it...

Life is kindaf conflicting at times... Sometimes i juz wanna put stuff on my msn, not for ppl to know, or for them to ask, but for me to put it... Like a sort of venting my frustrations...
But now, im scared to put things on my msn nick... I dun want ppl to ask bt it, i just want them to accept it as it is... Maybe tts y i've decided to post more on this blog, n put less on my msn... At least i know tt not many ppl still read this... N tt only ppl who are concerned would read...

Insecurity... This word has been a big part of my week... Someone telling me bt this feeling of insecurity... N me myself experiencing it... Perhaps tts y many ppl ard me are asking me if im emo or sth, but perhaps, its juz this insecurity feeling i get... This feeling that i know i should not be feeling but yet, i am feeling it... Its not even that i feel tt something bad is happening, but i juz cant help but look at the worst case... That what if blah blah blah is true, what if all that i am afraid of is true... I know that it is very unlikely to be true, but the "whatifs" still plague me a lot... Perhaps its cos i care bt this too much to be wrong...


I like the series 1 tree hill a lot, its really seems quite relevant to my life... Juz 1 word of advice, unless ur life is smooth-sailing, else better dun watch it... Will only make u feel worse... =p

Hmmm... A very nice song...
Babyface- Nobody knows it but me...

Wish I told her how I feel,
Maybe she'd be here right now
but instead...

I pretend that I'm glad you went away
These four walls closing more every day
And I'm dying inside
And nobody knows it but me
Like a clown I put on a show
The pain is real even if nobody knows
And I'm crying inside
And nobody knows it but me

Why didn't I say the things I needed to say
How could I let my angel get away
Now my world is just a-tumblin' down
I can say it so clearly but you're nowhere around

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

I carry smile when I'm broken in two
And I'm nobody without someone like you
I'm trembling inside
And nobody knows it but me (yeah)

Lie awake, it's a quarter past three
I'm screaming at night if I thought you'd hear me
Yeah, my heart is calling you
And nobody knows it but me (well, well)

How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

oooo oohhhhh yeah

Tomorrow morning, I'm a hit a dusty road
Gonna find you, where ever, ever you might go
And I'm gonna load my heart and hope you come back to me

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me