Decisions...

Its easy to talk the talk, but its nv easy to walk the walk.

I can say tt i want to do this, but sometimes i juz cant put my heart on it n tell myself tt i will do it. I realise how dependent i am on friends, i may seem a tough guy, but when it comes to matters between friends, etc, i just feel so bothered sometimes.

I realised how much of an indirect person i am tonight. I dared not tell a person honestly what i think, for fear of offending him or making things difficult. Yet, i keep thinking n thinking bt it. Guess tts juz me, nothing i can do bt it.

What do u want in ur life?

What do u want in ur life?
Many ppl have asked me this and i always reply with 1 word.
"To be happy."

But what is that? Sometimes i think, there's really no pt taking tough courses cos i prob wun be doing anything like that at all in the future. But deep down inside, i know that i wun be satisfied taking mediocre courses, just for the sake of a degree. I want a real degree in which i know what i am doing, not just some degree which i "smoked" all over. Tts y i know no matter how many times i say it, i will still take tough courses. Perhaps knowing that i am learning something makes me happy. or perhaps, my best fren is really called "stress".

Enuff of work talk

Something interesting happened in class today. My 40 + 50 yr old professor was wearing the same shirt as me!!! A white polo from Nautica, all white except for the little logo. I was darn shocked when i saw that, and i dared not take off my jacket for the whole class, even though it was getting a little warm. Dun ask me y i felt paiseh, it was an inner feeling i could not describe. Perhaps i was embarrassed that we shared the same taste, considering i do not like the professor a lot. Which got me started on thinking of my dress sense. I classified the types of shirts i wear into 3 categories:

1. The nice-print, comfy t-shirts. Realised i am not a fan of plain t shirts, or light colored ones. In fact, i realised tt in my wardrobe, most of my t-shirts are dark, n i think dark tshirts look better too.

2. the fitting polos. I like polos that are fitting, not very tight but fitting. N weirdly, i like them plain. plain with perhaps 1 logo, but nothing too much other than that.

3. short sleeve shirts. I like darn colors, i used to be a fan of black n dark blue, but when i opened my wardrobe today, guess what. My shirts are mostly light colored. Yes. a few yrs back, i was more obessessed with the black ah-beng kindaf shirts, i admit. But now, i have those light blue shirts, red n white shirts, n my most recent addition, a PINK shirt. I have no idea wad i was thinking of when i bought it, but well, i have already bought it.

Dun ask me y i'm rambling bt this, it just crossed my mind.

After 1 month....

Its been 1 month since i last updated my blog. Apologies to all those who wanna read some new stuff but always get the same old stuff. Well, for a start, i dropped a course to ease off my load, and boy, i really felt much more relaxed after dropping that course. It was a wise decision, as even after dropping the course, i still had my dear analog IC design squeezing me to the max.

I nv thought i'd see myself staying in school till 5 am, but I did that for 3 nights. Not cos i wanted to, but cos i juz cant get my design to work. N i had to change my design 3 times, which wasted at least 40 hrs over the 2 weeks. But well, its all over now!

Mid sem break was ard the corner, and due to this cray load, i had to pangseh my frens gng to the mid west games to stay behind, both to finish up work as well as just slack around at home as opposed to rushing here n there. Real sry guys. But it was great.
Here're things which made my mid sem break:
- great dinner at a spanish restaurant with many great pals. It was great to see everyone again after camping at the ece cluster fer 2 weeks

- Exciting dota sessions. Glad that the cmu dota population is increasing, and with zealous ppl such as mingyang, stone, i'm sure that we'll be playing even more. I apologise for my poor net connection though, will be getting a better net connection soon!

- Drinking. I bet that you'd be surprised but yeah, i went drinking during then. Drank quite a lot after my "newcastle" session, in fact, i think the drinks are stronger though i think i took less. Or did i take more? Cant remember. But at least i can walk myself, a 1/2 drunk chiobu n a 3/4 drunk yan daoz home. So i'm nt tt drunk k?Feels quite gd actually, shucks i think i may be becoming a drinker soon. Arrgh.

- Grove city. I cannot emphasise how important this is to my whole mid sem break. It is like the oly thing spurring me on during those dark days n nights in the ece cluster. N it turned out very well!
I din buy as many pairs of shoes, but just 1 pair which i really really liked. Was contemplating buying a very nice fossil watch which costs $40, but in the end, decided to save money. Heh. Bought many polos also, but i always prefer my polos to be a lil fitting as opposed to being baggy. Just a personal liking. N finally no one can ever accuse my red n white shirt with small checkers of being pink anymore! Too shy to say the reason out, but at least no more mistaken color identity i confirm. Wanted to make the day even better with a BR jeans tt looks darn good! N its on offer, or at least i tot so when they hanged a (denim: $24.99) just above it. But days are never perfect for me, and the 24.99 refers to the sweaters above, or so the cashier says. N the original price is $60. Zzz. I'd buy it even if its 40, but 60, too bad.

- Sleep. I slept a lot, much more than i normally do. N guess what, i'm still sleeping a lot even after the break. Glad i could afford the sleep though.