The aftermath...

U've heard everything bt the great things during my thxgiving break... N b4 the break when i hung out at Mingyang's place to play winning eleven... Now its time for the aftermath...
Guess what... Yes, i became addicted to drama serials again... This time its a drama serial called "lao po da ren" the one i bought from toronto... N whats even better is that i'm addicted on it just when i have the most work... As Alan's theory of CMU goes:" A student in CMU, can only choose 2 out of these 3 things in CMU... Work, play, sleep..." N guess what i chose...
On e night of my midterms (monday n tues night), i was still busy trying to pia my drama serial... N i cant stop... Even do work oso no mood... So instead of making myself 90% confident b4 my exams, i had to stop at 70%...
Was trying to get some work done last night... When Alan called me to go play soccer... 5 short 1... Hmm... Was planning to watch my vcd soon after doing some more work, but figured tt i shd go for soccer... Theory:" I can watch it anytime, but i cant play soccer everytime..." So i convinced myself to drag myself out of my warm room.... I further convinced myself:" Since i'm planning to cover 3 episodes (2 hrs 15 mins) worth of vcd, mgiht as well spend that time playing n watch 1/2 hr only... Sounds good... The only problem is... After i came back... I still watched 3 episodes... N i still slept my 7 hrs... Not too difficult to figure out what i did less...
Gng to watch mee pok man soon... Yar, though i kept saying tt i have work to do, n i really do have work to do, but for some reason, i'm still managing to squeeze out tiem for other stuff... I've been thinking for some time... I'm still spending time on work, i'm still sleeping, i'm still enjoying myself... How is that possible? Where did i get my extra time from... Dun ask me... I'm still trying hard to figure that out...
Until yihang asked me if i wanted to go gym... Then i realised... I was spending much lesser time exercising these days... Unlike back then when i try to go gym once every few days, n play sports as frequently as possible... Now... I'm just eating, n doing work, n sleeping... N the cycle continues... Hmm... N after coming back from toronto, where i ate sooooo much, i could feel my tummy liao... Arrgh... All the time i had spend trying not to get fat has gone wasted... now its time to slim down again! Must encourage me to exercise, n whoever reads this blog n is here in cmu now, pls FORCE me to go EXERCISE!!! Cant take it anymore... Xiang dang nian... hai...
Just remembered tt i had totally forgot bt a great fren's bday... shucks... Tt week wasnt too gd a week fer me... N it somehow slipped my mind... Now thinking of how to make up fer it... Hmm...

Thanksgiving break... PArt III: everything else...

There was also a china town along toronto, with lotsaf small eateries and restaurants... Din really manage to eat there though, as we were craving more for jap food or dim sum... The stay was too short fer us to really try out everything, kindaf sad... But heard canada had some bird flu or wadever during tt time, so wasnt too in favour of gng to eat duck or chicken or turkey, though i really craved for duck meat... Arrgh, shdnt talk anymore bt food, makes me hungry nia... N i'm suppose to eat less these days...
The weather there was less than great though, its freaking cold lorz... it was from -5 to -9 degrees but with the wind chill, it felt more like -15 to -18... Wanted to walk through the underground passes everytime but sadly, we have a garung signals officer leading us who prefers to take the shorter n colder path... Hai... Even wearing woolen gloves werent enuff my fingers were still frozen... N it was so cold tt i couldnt bring myself to luff in the open, with my face kindaf frozen n numb, it was painful to luff... or smile... Even our words were muffled, n i was unable to pronounce the words accurately...
Manage to bring back a few dvds though, 1 of them being a hongkong tv drama series which stars my all time favourite Tvbs actresses, JEssica Hsuan... Another Jessica... Even though she's like 30+ but she still looks young (not due to make up or preservation but rather, she has that kindaf "young" look)N she acts darn well, every role she plays is so convincing... Had lotsaf hw to do when i got back to pittsburgh, but after i watched 1 episode of the series " Lao Po Da Ren", i couldnt stop... Piaed 6 episodes in 1 night, sleeping at 4 30 am... N with all the homeowkr piling, i seriously need to start doing work.. Arrgh... Hope i can really manage to start my work n get my homework mood fast... BEtter get out of my holz mood... Anywya, it'll be coming again next month, when i go to Europe! Yay... Kk, better go listen to lect n pia now... good luck to myself...

thanksgiving break... Part II: Niagara falls

The falls werent as grand as i initially thought it would be, as i imagined it to be a high huge waterfall with waters falling from great heights... But after having been there, then i realise that its so famous not because of its height but rather, the milions of gallons of water that it releases every second... Its the sheer power and volume that amazes the world, and this makes it work even better as a hydroelectric dam... It was darn cold over there though, with mist all around the falls making it even harder to take pictures... But it was still an amazing sight, the only regret being that we could not enjoy a boat ride around the falls... (the rides are availble from april to october only) Shall go there again during summer i hope, n i shall finally attempt to drive in the US... A more enjoyable aspect of the trip to niagara is more of the wine tasting along the way... We stopped for wine tasting at different galleries but due to time constraint, we could only stop at 2 of them... Was introduced to ice wine, which is much sweeter than ordinary wine and much more expensive... ITs so expensive as there needs to be 3 consecutive nights of -8 degrees before the grapes could be plucked and fermented... So its not something tt can be done every year... For those who dun like wine, cos of its bitterness or wadever, u shd really try ice wine... Its very soothing n cooling n sweet! Really a very different breed of wine... Arrgh, shdnt think bt ice wine anymore, makes me thirsty only... Haha...
N just for ur info, the buffet wif the cheesecake was ate in niagara, inside of a casino... Haha... Din gamble though, firstly there wsnt really enuff time n 2ndly, my luck in casinos haven been t good at all... Lost 10USD both times i tried playing so well, mebbe i shdnt play...

Thanksgiving break... PArt 1... Food...

Had a nice time last week... Din wanna do any hw at all, n well, i din do... Slacked here n there before gng to toronto for my thanksgiving holz... Shall split it the trip into several parts to talk about....
Part 1: Food...
It was darn shiok.... the food... think i grew a tummy liao after the few days of da yu da rou... Sian... Dim sum, jap buffet, international buffet,etc all contributed to it... Super shiok.... Long long time nv eat dim sum liao, the 6 of us really ordered a lot n ate until we're all fully satisfied... The international buffet was the most worth mentioning... Beef ribs! Lamb chops! Omg, so my fav kindaf meats... N the beef ribs are really nice... But A pity i ate too much before gng to the dessert section. Think the desserts offered is really the widest range in any buffet i've been to... They offer so many types of cakes, Black forest cake, mango cake, Fruit cake, N not to mention CHEESE CAKE!!! YEs, its a buffet which means u can eat as many slices as u want... The other pastries around like the different pies, n cookies, n moose, n (there's too many for me to list out) are oso darn nice... Ok, they look nice, i din manage to eat everything though... Ate the famous cookies, n oso pecan pie... N of cos, the cheese cake! Had like 1 slice of strawberry cheese cake n 3 slices of plain cheesecake... ITs not those cheapo type, but rather, those thick cheesy type... The ever-so-sinful type... Too bad i ate the beef ribs n stuff b4 tt, else i think i'd definitely save up my stomach for the cheese cake... Its been soooo long since i last ate, with each slice costing ard 4-5 USD in pittsburgh.... Even till now, i could still remember the cheese cake melting in my mouth, with the rich taste overwhelming me... N i must say, its comparable to those cheese cake in coffee bean or nydc, if not better.... The jap buffet itself wasnt bad too, too bad we went there at like 820 pm while it closes at 10 pm.... THe food is really not bad at all, n unlike those typical jap buffets, the chef dxn put like big cubes of rice wif lil ingredients in it, but rather, the rice is not in huge chunks at all... Yeah... But the waiting time for the food was a lil bad, n thus, we sat n ate all the way till 10 pm, haha.... too bad the last plate of sashimi din arrive though... But nevertheless, we all left feeling happy n satisfied n yet, not totally bloated... Ok, finally i'm done with the food...

Just some stuff to bitch abt...

YEah this serves as a continuation of the previous post... I've been thinking recently bt stuff... As i've said, there's less work and so, more time to think bt stupid stuff... Darn bo liao right? But yeah... Got pissed twice over the weekend, despite the fact that it was a relaxing one... The first was during soccer... Hate ppl who chao pia during soccer, i.e. put in all their 110% effort to push n pull others... I mean comon lorz, its just a friendly match between us friends, surely there's no need for such rough treatment right? I've always been an advocate of peace, i admire those who're fast n just just qie me inside out... I have no complains... But if u're those who keep pusing n pulling, pls dun force me to push n pull too... I'm sure i can do a nice job of it too... Had a tm which couldnt click at all... Won only like 2/10 matches... Had a new guy on the tm, he's not bad, but just too like too focused on maintainin possession such tt he dxn even try to shoot... Have a person who kept sliding too... Its not tt the tackles were hard, but he just keeps coming again and again... Sianz.. even if he dxn spare a tot fer himself, but spare a thought for those playing wif him... Even if u dun care bt others, spare a thought for urself dude... N its darn irritating to have play interrupted becos of his sliding... N of cos, not to mention some turtles whom i just cant stand... Got used to it already liaoz though... ferever accusing me of bo jio... When comon lorz, not as though u got jio me in the first place too... But just tt u're always the one who complains 1st... N also, if u always no-show, n u nv let anyone know u're interested in anything, dun expect the whole world to keep asking u n stuff... Ok, maybe others will but me, hmmm... Sorry lorz... Freaking irritated lorz... But oh well, leaving for toronto in like a few hrs liao... So shallnt bother myself wif all these irritating stuff... Hope to have a really enjoyable stay, b4 the madness sinks in again... Haiz...

A slack weekend...

This week has been quite not bad, work aint really that much n i have the time to actually relax for a while... The weekend was great, with me left with only my research stuff left to do... 1 homework for the weekend! How long have i not experienced that? Dunno... Only thing is, the free internet which i've been "leeching" upon is once again unavailable... Haiz... Nv minded spending 10+ for a stable internet connection, but fer some reason, my roommates dun seem particularly keen on 1... So well, i just slowly suck thumb n wait lorz...

Watched 13 going 30 on over e weekend... Think Jennifer Garner really acted quite well in that movie, portraying the awkardness of a 13 yr old mind in a 30 yr old body... Looking at the politics existing in the world then, as compared to the innocence of her when she was young, it really make me think... a few more yrs down the road, would i have to worry about such stuff? Worrying if friends are really what i think they are, or are they simply putting on a smiley face in front of me n happily backstabbing me behind my back...

WAtched Dukes of Hazzard on sat night too! Yeah... Wanted to watch it, purely for the no-brain-humor kindaf plot and also partially Jessica Simpson... Well, everyone says the show sucks big time... But after watching it, well its not excellent or wadever, but its certainly worth my time watching... At least its a good movie to destress... Luffing at the stupid things the Dukes do... N of cos, watching Jessica Simpson who's just so darn hot... I'd think she's the hottest person on TV these days, with a superbly nice n proportionate figure... Yes, proportionality... tts wad i think is most attractive bt a women's figure... She's seriously like occupying my mind after that, at least for the walk back home... Think she's the kindaf girl which would make guys nose bleed lorz... N well, i dun think i'm e only one who thinks she's tt darn hot... Right, Mingyang? Just feel so inspired to once again try to go workout n be in gd shape... After having slack for dunno how darn long... Mebbe i shd go workout the next day... Hmm...

Random rambling...

just feel like rambling bt random stuff tonight... Feel like writing something but dunno wad to write... Wonder if anyone has tt kindaf feeling b4... Its a lil sian of life, not tt my life isnt gd, but i just feel tt something's lacking... Hmm... Just registered for my courses next sem the day b4... Think i'll be dead next sem, wif all the hw coming in... Seriously considering what i shd do... Even though i've registered, but i have like 1 month + to slowly consider my decision... so nothing's really fixed yet... Got 1 course i cant get into yet though, being like one of the many on the waitlist... While others are worried bt not getting in, i have a weird viewpoint towards tt... If i cant get in, it means tt i'll most prob die next sem wif the big 4 so heaven's trying to help me by not letting me haf the chance to take it so i'll have more time to relax n slack... But if i get in, it means heaven trying to make me challenge myself n develop my potential, pushing myself to higher heights...
Haha, wad a naive way of thinking ar... Machiam like deluding myself lydat... but i'm really a believer in karma or destiny or wadever... I've nv doubted tt there's someone up there, who's always out to help me... yeah, me... Though it may sound naive to u, but well, this sortaf thinking really makes me much more cheerful than normal, making me able to accept set backs... N i really do think this way... If u feel like smashing my bubble, pls try not to be too direct bt it horz...
Was listening to Jay chou's newest album... initially thought nothing much of it... Ye qu was only ok to me, by jay chou's standards... Until i heard si mien chu ge... Think its a darn cool song, but well, tts mebbe cos i like a lil rap wif a nice nice tune in the background... My frens all seem to like fa ru xue but i err... Dun really like it... Sounds a bit like the qing tian style to me (which fyi, is a song i totally dun like)... Mebbe a lil dong feng po too, n tt song aint really one of my favs too... But as i listened more, i realised got several good songs too... Feng, #6 is darn good larz... I really like it a lot... Has a tinge of sadness in it... Which is mebbe y i like it... Hei se mao yi is good too, another sad song which i simply cant resist... The duet is kindaf sweet, at last, another good duet for guys to sing wif girls besides wu ding... There is another song which is not bad, track 8 i believe called Ni lin... Wonder if my taste is really tt weird...

Feeling so tired tonight... Must be the soccer... but real glad to be able to play indoor soccer once again... Darn shiok... n i still managed to score a few goals... even though the ground too slippery to really run n control ball... Played more of passing or shooting... hopefully can play again this sat...

Just realised tt i'm turning 22 soon... The end of my prime age... Then by the time i graduate
i'll be like 24... tts like how old lorz... Kaoz... Feeling darn demoralised now... its really sui yue bu liu ren...

Anyway, feeling tired... Enuff of rambling... Just hope tt the weekend is gd... Since i've not much hw for the weekend, think can really relax a bit... hope my frens will be free enuff to go have fun or wadever, but anyway, there's always dota... haha... Long time nv play liao, fri night is coming again!! Haha... Yay...

Sanity kicks in...

Begin to think tt i shd rechoose my courses next sem... No point committing suicide... or dropping... But if i'm back to the crossroads, i really dunno which course to drop... every course seems interesting to me, every course seems to be a possible way tt i shd go in... Yet i know, we cant always have everything... So perhaps its time for me to reconsider my decision again... sianz...
suddenly feel so lost without anymore drama serials to watch... Gotta pop food into my mouth to help relieve the addiction now....
Felt really tired today... Must be the lack of sleep over the weekend... I've been getting an ave of at least 6.5 hrs per week tis sem, but last few days, i slept like only 4 or 5 hrs per night... Y? Cos i have work to do... N i have drama serials to watch... N games to play... Cant compromise on the work, can only compromise on the sleep... But i din feel much those days... until this morning, then i'm like really tired... go to class cant conc too, just feel like sleeping... Darn bad lorz... But heng at least i think i did ok on my midterm... Whew...
Feeling hungry easily nowadayz... Sian... Keep eating snacks n stuff non-stop, reminds me of my suppers which nv fail to make me grow fat... Haiz... hope i dun grow fat... Wads worse, i haven been exercising tt often, or rather, i dun feel ymself exercising tt much... think much of my fitness has left me liao... Whoever free pls try to organise some sports or wadever... I wanna play!!! Was feeling darn tired juz now, but after my frens came to terrorise me wif their cat, well, i'm fully awake now... Arrgh... N guess wad, the stupid vacuum dxn seem to work... think gotta wait till tmr b4 i can use it... haiz... sianz...

Lotsaf things to say..

The past week has been a great week, with little stress n midterm... In fact, it was so good i feel like as though i'm back in my freshman sem, trying to look for things to do to kill time... haha... But But oh well, now the work is coming again, wif my prof back n my Ece assignment there again... N of course, not forgetting i have a midterm tmr... Really got so many things to post today... wanted to try to spread it over a few posts, but i know myself well enough, i'll just forget... Haha... So lemme just say everything in 1 shot...
Getting hooked onto the chinese drama serial xiao yu er n hua wu que, starring dicky cheung(one of my all time fav comedian-actor) n nicholas tse( yeah, the one girls go crazy over)... Got quite a lot of not bad girls in it too, though they arent really tt famous... It aint an excellent show, the whole serial itself dxn look tt gd, in the sense that it dxn look convincing enough... but i'm looking more for the plot, (though not fantastic) as to whether the female lead and the guy lead (dicky cheung) got together... Its the same thing as inuyasha tt got me hooked onto it... My strong liking for the female lead such tt i really wish to c her n the male lead get together... though this weekend is suppose to be a lil stressful, but well, i still watched like 10+ episodes of it... Left with 1 more before the long break for Lisa to go home n bring back the other episodes... Haha... But i shall just finish it later... Din really have the mood to do work after wathcing, but rather, made me think about what kindaf girl i really like to have... yes yes, its the usual guys day-dreaming about the perfect gf thingy... besides the usual stuff like pretty, (i.e. Mischa Barton), or decent etc, but i just realised tt i may actually enjoy someone with a lil xiao jie pi qi, wif a sharp tongue for bickering... Weird right? Mebbe think i watch too much of this drama serial than kena influenced by the "xiao xian nu" in the show... The typical xiao jie, who is ba4 dao4 n unreasonable at times, but yet, lovable in her own light... But better dun say too much, in case next time i really kena such a gf only to realise that this kindaf girls aint as cute as i thought they are... Haha... then i regret saying all this today...
Thinking about next sem's courses really gives me the creeps... Seriously think i'll be buried under books next sem... With no time fer leisure... Its like 4 x the time of the toughest course this sem... N perhaps more... My only wish for next sem: Let me grow smarter by next sem so that i can finish my work faster...
Listening to Jay chou's newest album now... the 1st time i hear, i think tt its ok only... But as i listen more, hmm... more n more songs are getting into my mind... Feng... Si mien chu ge... shan hu hai... Hei se mao yi... Not really the most popular of songs among my friends i think, but well, my taste is nv always the same as the norm, too bad for me...
Heng i aspire to write down as much as i wish to write this time... All my previous thoughts are like starting to fade away again... Sian... Mebbe think i grow old liao... Haiz... N 1 more month than i'll leave the golden age of 21... hiyohz...
Had a great time yday at the ssa sports day playing bball n volleyball... Nv knew bball could be so fun... Actually, think its one of the times i really enjoyed playing bball... Then today had a soccer match... Which was... disappointing... 2 fluke goals by the opposition while we scored 1... They had like 0 shots on goal, less than 3 shots in all.... Had 1 own goal n 1 which the ball rolled, hit post n went in... Sibei sian... N got 1 honky which is like darn aggressive... Yeah, the typical short n stout kind... like MArio's kindaf figure...
Sometimes i wonder if i'm too sensitive to stuff... My temper aint really the best of all, but just as fast as i get agitated, i cool down darn fast too... Sometimes i wonder if its really so hard to be honest with a person... Telling the person what u think... Y must everything be lil so insinuative... hinting through other means n then, w/out even telling the person wads wrong, u go on to bitch about him/her to others... Is it fair to him? Well, i really hate such ppl, machiam think tt they're sortaf like sewer rats, always hiding in the dark, smearing u behind others... but before i can carry on, think i better reflect on myself first... Scully later i scold scold until darn song, then curse curse until even more song, then realise i am like that... Then i can just go n dig a hole n bury my head in it liao... Sibei lao kui... ... ... ... Eh, dun think i'm so insinuative... sometimes the way i treat others is based on how they treat me... If u're direct with me, i'm direct to u... U treat me nice, i treat u nicer... U wanna go ard the bush, i can run ard the bush 10 times... U wanna bitch, i can bitch 10 times more... U wanna try anything worse, i'll just protect myself n let karma take care of u...
Just realised tt time passes really slowly... Something which i thought happened a few weeks back ago actually took place last week... How come ar... I din have tt much work these few weeks... But think i've been thinking more than i normally would.. thinking bt life n ppl n stuff... Haiz... Mebbe tts y things seem slower...

I've decided! Yeah...

Finally, i've roughly decided wad courses to take next sem... spent a lot of time thinking here n there... Planning my courses... But i decided to go forward with my intuition, n with belief in myself, i shd be able to face up to the challenges ahead... At least, i've still being interested in my ECe courses until this point of time... So i shd just do what i think i can try... finally, a load is taken off my mind... Its been bothering me for quite some time liao... But yeah, its finally over...

For some reason, this week seems especially relaxing... W/out the EE homework and with an easy 202 assignment, the week really seems much less work than it makes out to be... Furthermore, my prof's wife just conceived n he aint ard... So well, tt means 1 week w/out work.. yay... Haha...
To think i even played dota during the week is really inconceiviable, but oh well, dun think i'll have that chance anymore... Foresee the workload coming again, n next sem... Err... Its even worse... Wonder if i can even relax for 1.5 days during the weekends... Its scary but yet, interesting... Except maybe for my C programming... Hope i'll be as interested as i predicted...

Btw, i cfm my trip to Europe already! or have i said it b4... But well, Europe here i come! Haha... Planning to go the UK n ITaly, n hopefully Scotland n also mebbe Greece... Yeah, will be spending a huge amt i know, but compared to gng back to sg, its only a few more hundred USD... N its somewhere i've nv been to b4... Whee... Anyone got any places to recommend for me to go?

Its been a while....

Havent posted for quite some time.. Reason being: Din really wanna write bt this until i can get over it totally... din want to keep leaving droplets of tears forming in my eyes everytime i think about it... Its the time in my life when i really regretted not doing something more... N now, no matter what i do, i can no longer make amends... Learnt a very important lesson from it, cherish what u have now... Nothing is forever... For those who are basking in the love of ur parents or b/g f or spouse or child... Do treasure it... U nv know when anything can happen... By that time u start to regret n wish tt u had done more, well, the fact remains tt u'll nv be able to do anything already... Dun start cursing n weeping then, dun feel bad tt u hadnt been a better person then...
But well, think i've gotten over it liao... Back to my usual self n thoughts again... glad tt i had my homework n courses to keep me occupied then, but now, its another painful decision to make regarding my courses next sem... Hmm... Shd i just try to challenge myself n pia the big 4? Which will most probably lead to me living a life of recluse, everyday mugging n mugging n mugging... or shd i be more sane... But if i'm more sane, then shd i go down the path which i'm interested in but yet not so gd in, or shd i go down the path tt i know i shd be quite ok in but less interesting for me... hmm... (less interesting dxn mean its not interesting... )

N i've already confirmed my winter plans! I'll be gng to europe to visit my frens in Uk n gng to tour europe! Shiok... hopefully can catch a liverpool match somewhere, it'll be really like a dream come true... Think the same goes for mingyang to be able to catch a chelsea match... Haha... Must really plan it well... Nv tot planning could be this tedious, but oh well, at least its better than having to pull hairs at homework problems... Apologies to my frens n family in sg fer not being able to c u all this winter, but dun worry, time will pass fast enuff b4 i'm once again back in sg n we can all hang out together again!

Think sometimes, we shd all try to be a lil more sensitive to the feelings of others... Though we may all hate that certain team, n wish for them to lose, but i still think, we shd still try to appreciate their strengths... Its hard to be objective at times, but think my dad has taught me well, being able to appreciate things from a wider point of view... for some reason, i watch liverpool lose more than they win... But yet, my dad never fails to applaud the other team if their goal was a good goal or a good shot... Yeah, we always hope tt we or the choices we make are the best, but life is not always as u wish it to be... Perhaps it might be better to see things with a broader mind... Admitting to our flaws and recognising the strengths of others... Ok, enuff said... Think u get my pt, whoever is reading this...

Has much more stuff to say, after mia for 2 weeks... But think shall slowly post more stuff over the next few days...