1st day...

Finally made up my mind bt my class, yeah, embedded is my final choice. Go wif wad i want, not wad will be more useful or wadever. Hah.

Classes seem tough, dun understand anything the lect is talking bt, but well, i was reminded tt most classes are like that. So i'm keeping my fingers crossed.

Dunno y but i always end up as mediator in other's problems, esp R/S stuff. Weird. I've nv minded helping others out if i can. But its really not fun to ask me for help, i tell u wad i think, u dun listen, u get into the same problem, ask me again, i tell u the same thing, n u dun listen n get into the same problem again. N ya, for dunno how many times...

N pls dun try to push everything to me. A quote from my bud, "Dun make other ppl's problem become ur problem". A lil harsh, but its true. This is life.

Juz realised tt i'm back to my loner mood after coming back to pitt. Or rather, more independent mood. I've grown perfectly fine wif doing wad i want alone, if no one else wants to be part of it.

Random thoughts

just becos a person is insistent dxn mean tt everyone ard him has to give way to him.
Similarly, juz becos a person is nice dxn mean he can be bullied.
There ought to be a form of balance in the world.

For some reason, CMU seems to have many more chio bus ard. I'm sure mingyang agrees wif me too. Too bad they're mostly koreans i think.

Life today is darn gd. Its like exactly what I wanna do. Nothing.

I like to be convinced by reason, but there seems to be a lack of it these days.

Back to Pitt...

The last moment was unbearable once again. I could not bear to say good bye to everyone, there's just such a part of my heart tt qns why i am always leaving. But dun worry, just 2 more yrs n i'll be really back. After my attachment, i realised tt working life aint as fun as i thought. In fact, i shd really just enjoy my schooling times, these are the times that i have the freedom to do what i want. After schooling, there'll be no more such thing. So this sem, i officially declare, i will not be that xiong on myself!

N ya, think once again i am jetlagging here. But at least i managed to sleep fer 6 hrs, without any dreams. As compared to sg where i keep having dreams. N even on the 12 hr flight i oso dreamt. N ya, guess wad, i dreamt tt i reached detroit already when i woke up when there's still like 6 hrs to go. But the flight wasnt tt bad. My new strategy worked. I piaed a bt during the flight to japan, by trying not to sleep n watching like 3 + movies. then during the 12 hr flight, i could sleep more, n i was right! I did really sleep more. Haha... Though not exactly a lot, but somehow i was also quite caught up in watching the movies, both cartoons. Curious george n ice age 2. Not bad at all.

Over the summer, heard tt the ceiling of the corridor outside the toilet collapsed. Its really darn suei larz, but at least the maintenance did up everything already, or so as i heard. So i went home not really know what to expect. but however, think they did up the ceiling pretty well, the toilet ceiling was done up quite well too. So i happily went into my room which gave me a shock! My room was not in the same state i left it. REally wtf... My futon was like super dirty, a bottle from my table was on the floor, my multiplug was unplugged. Was really like wtf, Which %&)#@&%!#&$)!&$ entered my room during summer? As i silently wiped through my room, i cursed under my breath tt whoever entered my room during summer w/out my permission have his house ransacked one day. Knn. Wad a way to be welcomed back. Thanks man.

3rd last day...

Had 2 very memorable chats today wif my best bud and an old fren. Cant remember when was the last time i chatted wif someone until 4 am, but even when we were saying bye, topics came up. We both knew tt it would be hard to relate topics when i'm in US once again, as much as we hate to admit it. But sometimes, proximity really does play an important role in conversations. But real thx yc...

Really appreciated honest n direct advice when given, as opposed to subtle hints or sarcasm. I prefer ppl to tell me things straight to my face, n i will take it seriously. For the 253047135245th in my life, i am told tt sometimes, there's no need to think so much bt things. Juz think a while, make a decision, n abide by it.

Too lz to write anything more.

My buddies...

Think it'll be another yr b4 i meet this grp of buds again... Felt really sad n even worse tt i couldnt meet everyone... But well, at least i still had a gd time chatting wif them... chatted bt lotsaf stuff, bt our lives up to date... N its really not easy to be completely honest with other ppl i realised, esp all our inner thoughts n stuff... but i tried, n i appreciate the advice given...

Listening to joey yung's 愛情復興 now, its quite a nice sad song, rakes up memories of the past... Memories in which i realised tt i have regrets... 2 in fact... Its always sad to think of wad u shd have done instead of the actual things u did... Will learn from my lessons...

I'm flying on THURS...

Really appreciated all my frens who asked to meet up early... Will really miss all of u ppl... N sry to those i couldnt meet... REally gotta spend time wif family... Ps... I tried... Will c ya guys next yr!

Hate being overridden... If u already know wad to do, DUN ASK FOR OPINIONS... Its bloody irritating to have ppl ask u fer ur opinion, then overriding it singlehandedly the next moment... N worse, dun ever kb tt i din give my opinion...

I nv like pangsehing ppl... I always try not to pangseh anyone... But if i do, pls understand tt its really mandatory...

No more interesting facts... I'm glad...

That time of the yr...

Yes... Its tt time of the yr again... The same time i dun feel like doing anything... Cos i gng back soon... once again, i gotta leave my family n frens behind... i know i will be alright once i reach pitt, but now, i still cant not feel sian... Even after 2 yrs... even though mylife there not tt bad... even though i have a great bunch of frens there... N juz as my sis is entering uni, where she needs my help in certain mods, i cant be ard to help her... Zzz... N all my old buddies, as well as some of my new frens, i juz cant bear to leave them back here... i am at a lost fer words now... dunno wad to say, but the feeling juz continues to haunt me...

Listening to the song "cai hong tian tang" (rainbow heaven) by liu geng hong... A sad song wif a tinge of sadness...

Memories flowing back... Could remember the 1st time i visited my grandma's house after i came back... The more i think, the worse i feel... I juz hope this feeling goes away soon...

Just another interesting fact to hope to divert my attention...
I am susceptible to girls with those icy, serious look...

Rambling...

Had a gd chat wif a fren yday... Its been a long time since i last have a real gd chat wif him... Esp, regarding stuff bt principles n morals... Its really not easy to have someone share ur thoughts, n even better, have someone who can totally understand where u're coming from wif similar principles... think i have a different set of principles in my life, but well tts a boring topic to say... think i'll juz think more bt it...

There're qns in my life which i must answer... n time is not on my side... Hopefully i can answer them soon... b4 the day i rue my indecisiveness once more...

A interesting pt to note:
I think i am susceptible to girls who are slightly buck toothed...

Learnt another thing today...

i am very susceptible to cute girls who act cute but are not angmohish or westernized...

Learnt something new today...

Guys like Girls who are active n cute in their mannerisms... (not counting looks)
Lesser guys like girls who are reserved n quiet...

Most girls like guys who talk more n come up wif stupid stuff to make them luff...
Lesser girls like guys who are serious n quiet...

Morale of the story: Give those quiet ones a chance...

The end of my internship...

Yeah, as the title says it... I'm now officially a free man again!!! haha... But weirdly, during the last day, i felt kindaf tempted to continue my internship... Missed the ppl there, n juz as i was getting to know them better, i had to leave... think my dept isnt too bad, lotsaf fun ppl ard, n by fun, i meant those ppl who speak hokkien n crack hokkien jokes... Haha... Real funny... Think i really belong to a chinese hokkien environment, not a totally eng speaking one... No discrimination or so, but to me, i find chinese n hokkien much more casual than eng... Hmm...

N on the night b4 i ended work, i was doing work... YES. U did not c wrongly, i did not type wrongly, i actually had to bring work back to do... Y? Ask Mr Bill Gates... I was using his ms word happily... Doing my report... Everything went as planned, i would be completing it in another 30 mins... Then, i decided to go soccernet a while... N juz as i went to i.e., msword started autosaving... N during the auto saving, the screen froze n the "send error msg to microsoft" window appeared... Wth lorz... Yes, msword crashed while it was autosaving... Which means... There's no auto recover copy, all tt was left was my copy tt i saved like 3 hrs ago? So ya... I had to redo... N i redid it at home...

Realised tt i'm a very easily affected person... I can juz meet a person fer a few hrs, n the next thing, i'm treating him/her as my gd fren liao... Guess its really bt the "connectivity"... Some ppl... I can spend a lot of time wif but well, he/she can nv get into me... But some others are juz the exact opposite... But well, i guess tts me...

A busy week...

Had a really busy week last week... Practically went out fer dinner every night, felt kindaf bad fer not pei-ing family... So decided to stay in more this week to pei them... After all, i'll be leaving soon, in another 3-4 weeks time...

But it was really an exciting week... Though its kindaf tiring to go out everyday, w/out having time to just nua at home... Met up wif some old frens, glad tt everyone's doing juz fine after graduation... N also darn qi gek tt there's suppose to be a place in florence, Italy where u can c the whole city... but despite the places i went to, i din go there... Sian1/2...

Watched Cabaret, the musical, too... Well, compared to Les Mis in Pittsburgh n Producers in London, it wasnt tt fantastic...But wad can u expect from $40, compared to $70 USD n 25 pounds... Fei Xiang was gd though, n the comment i really agree wif was tt this is something u'd nv expect Fei Xiang to do... A pity there werent enuff scenes fer him to exhibit his talent...
Met this girl who was, well, interesting... she is like very ang moh ish, speaking gd english wif a gd accent, but yet, dxn give me the feeling tt she's very flirtatious... which is good... N ya, she's like 19 only but yet she exudes an aura of maturity when she speaks... which is quite rare i feel among those i know... Mebbe cos i dunno many 19yr old girls... which reminds me... I'm gng to turn 23... Wth...

Went fer a nice ktv session too in which i realised the importance of choosing ur songs carefully... Everyone has his/her preferred genre of songs which he/she is better at singing... Choose those... Do not try to venture into untested territory n still pia thru it, leaving urself voiceless fer the next hr or so... Bad bad mistake.. Haha...

Went to sentosa too... Depite the dark clouds n well, our efforts paid off!! We saw the sun... Hahaha... N ya, i had my foot bruised all over wif red spots due to some lousy soccer ball... N a piece of advice... Dont ever try to walk across tt bridge back to harbour front instead of taking the bus... We saw the queue, figured it would take 2 buses or 3 b4 it would reach us... N while walking back, i saw at least 3 buses... N after the walk, i was soooo totally shag tt i juz felt like sleeping w/out even eating... More shag than the running at the beach lorz...

N of cos, had some other stuff which i'm too lz to talk bt...

N if u've juz broken up, its not the end of the world... In fact, its the beginning of a new life...