Ok, im really getting freer... Or getting more needy... The need to juz voice out all the pent up frustrations n stuff... Ok, i remembered a few months back when i was troubled by r/s stuff... And i told myself n some frens tt i'd rather be the one liking someone n feeling like shit than be the one liked and having to hurt anyone... Ok, i think the selfish me has awakened and i take that back... Its a totally crap feeling having that sense of insecurity bt someone... Well, its not the first time i've been thru this shit, but its been a long time since i last felt so... so... so insecure... Sighs... N the last time this happened, it really took me like a god-zillion yrs to get over it... And now it feels like deja vu... Call me a coward but im juz so scared, so scared of plunging in... Sighs... In fact, i think im so scared i might juz force myself to stop wadever i've been trying to do...

And i am seriously wondering if anyone is reading this... I juz hope no one is... Its weird aint it? Wanting to write sth to vent my frustrations to the outside world... But yet hoping no one ever sees this... Even though i could juz make it private like some other posts and i know no one will see it... But once again, this dxn feel shiok enuff too... Iono... Im contradictory, or to put it not so nicely, weird...