Cant believe it.. I'm sooo blur...

Omg, i just realised that i haven been updating my blog at all... For like a month? Arrgh... Haiz... Actually, i got write one, but just tt i posted in the wrong one... Haha... Stupid me... No wonder my frens asking me if i got update anot one... Then i tell em i got i got... Its so farnie... guess i may have lost some readers, but hope u'll be back... Dun worry, i aint abandoning this blog...

Spring break is coming liaoz... haha... a break from everything... But this sem, the work is really not killing me... Its even more relaxing than last sem lorz... Seriously... Mykoh cant take it too... Ferever c-ing me slack my time away, while he's slogging hard at programming.... Muahaha... Think its cos no programming... Programming really really kills... Dun play play... Next sem programmin again... Die...

As again, i have stupid problems again... which are totally work unrelated... how come ar? Haha... Housing is 1 problem... I think i'm quite ok towards it, so long i get my lil heavenly single room... Where i can rot all i like... do wadever i want... LAzing ard, muggin hard or wadever... Haha... But guess may be a lil hard under current circumstances.. Cos decisions i make aint affecting me only, but others too... so cant really do wadever i want... Must spare thought fer others... Yar... Was hoping to have a place near the rest of my frens, where we can hangout or gather together... Just to maintain the bonding btw us... Will hate it if i live far far away, n gotta walk or travel long distances just to meet them... It'll be super sianz... Arrgh... Kk, shall just pray fer e best option out fer the whole issue...

After thoughts... OC2...

Had a typically long day today... Had my last exam b4 the spring break... Hope i aint too careless... *Prays hard* Really dun wanna get any -ve score... Arrgh... The whole exam was darn stressful though... Its machiam like those kindaf exams where u gotta rush fer time n yet be cautious, while some problems are just soooo freaking tedious... But at least its all over... Hope my mid term grades will be ok... Watched another episode of OC2... For those who dunno wad it is, i seriously think u all can go n bang ur head on e wall beside u... HOW CAN U DUNNO WAD IS OC? (not officer commanding horz... ) Its actually a teenage drama flick, with lotsaf nice twists n stuff... Ok, i admit... Its not so much about the twists... Its more about Mischa Barton... Super wu di chio! Yeah... Arrgh, salivating now... Oooops... the twists were gd too... Serious... Today's episode was like a wrap up, where things seem to become right... Was just thinking about relationships in general... Sometimes things are just so unpredictable... U nv know wad the other party is thinking... N yet, how much time has been lost due to u not being able to speak up directly wad u think and mean to the other party? But yet, on the other hand, u have absolutely no idea of the other party's thought of u... the other party may not be inclined towards u, in fact, he/she may even be put off by u... At least, it seems tt way... So shd u take ur risk? but u really dun wanna make em pissed to the point that they dun even wanna talk to u in e end... But i'm glad the girl finally went back to her ex, who dared not tell her about how he feels until tonight.. n though the girl feels fer him, she dxn think its fair to her current bf, n her mind tells her she shd not go back to him... But maybe tts just how strange relationships are, or rather, how good tv shows are at capturing attention... But it brings to mind how u shd treat relationships... Not juz bgr, but even friends, family... Is direct confrontation or honesty always right? Sometimes, direct confrontation may cause dire consequences... Which u can nv put back to normal... Eating my fav ice cream now while thinking... Yumm... At least its a gd balance btw exerting ur mind n ur mouth... Haha... Haiz... time to nag n complain again... i'm getting fat!!! Arrgh... yet this mint ice cream with oreo, is just soooo yummy... Omg... Hlep me... someone pull my hand away... ITs not listening to my mind... Its losing ctrl... Arrgh... Ok... Nvm... Jsut let myself sin... My roommate's been eating ice cream like eveyr night... eating chocs n stuff... but yet he nv seems to get fat... Y is the world so unfair??? Y does a person who has sweet tooth, sour tooth, spicy tooth, (basically, a food lover) has to grow fat so easily??? but anyway, i've declared every thursday to be my official ice cream day!!! Muahahaha... Mint wif oreos ice cream, snickers ice cream, cookies n cream, u're mine!!! *slurps* Ok, enuff of nagging... Back to thinking... Hmm... Dunno wad to say now... Things have been happening, though not in the way i wanted though... Looking ferward to spring break... Where i can take a break from everything... Guess where i'm going dudes? Haha... Shallnt say it... Decided to keep it underwraps... Until i come back... Haha... Wah ice cream really darn sinful... Shall stop now... hmm... Mebbe 1 more scoop... =) Just a nice thought to sum up the night: "You dun like the person who does favours for u, u like the person whom u do favours for... "

Haiz, cant believe i haven written fer so long... nor did i even visit this page.. Keep wanting to write stuff but procrastination takes it toil on me... A mini "high" of my life has passed, "high" ===> homework, exams, etc.. Even my emotions are like a sine curve... But sadly though ,there are no high feelings... Only normal n low feelings... Hw is too boring to talk about so shall skip it... Haha... Lets talk about something interesting... CNY dinner for SSa last sat... 12th feb... It was great, in the sense of the spontaneousity (did i get this right?)... Everyone was so co=operative, shouting n cheering n stuff... In fact, even during th ktv session, when we expected no one to want to go, in e end, there were too many ppl wanting to go up... haha... Darn farnie... Oh, did i forget to say tt i went up too? And oops, did i mention tt its not due to me volunteering... Thx mann, my lovely batchmates, u guys are really good lorz... Thanks lehz... make me so freaking embarrassed at the end, n stupid me "zou yin" right at the first part of e song... Haiz... LAck practice i guess... looking forward to going back sg to practise!!! (though the practice sessions seem to be futile, but still, lets hope it will work wonders...) the CNY prep was even farnier... While preparing fer e yu sheng, i was really wondering how it will turn out... While i had my gloves on, picking up the fried oily yam n stuff, i really felt worried... Will it be edible? It feels so.. arrgh... When e time comes, ppl actually said its nice... Wah, feel darn relieved.. while we were eating it, we all felt tt its really good... Nice nice... Yummy... Haha... DArn proud of ourselve.s.. lolz.. This whole week had lotsaf stuff going on, including everyone's fav valentine's day... I spent e great night mugging away... cant believe it myself too... But its life... Wad cna i say man? got 2 exams the next day, this kindaf thing, bo bian one... But come to think of it, this sem fer me is really very enjoyable... I thoroughly enjoyed my lessons, all e way from deicision analysis, to social psy to concepts of maths... Makes me consider taking a sds minor instead of p n m... The xiong 2 weeks of my life finally passed, haha, 5 exams in 5 days... Of cos 1 is a take home... lolz... but still, its quite xiong... luckily only got the stupid social psy which i need to mug like mad, other than tt, i think the rest still quite ok... Was in a rush fer time, as i still had to squeeze time out to go presents during then... haiz, y din i do my prep earlier? Stupid me... Super procrastinator mann... kk, shall not be so lz next time... But guees wad, after this xiong week, i was kindaf relaxed... Relaxed as in thinking tt my hw not a lot, so can slowly do... but hell, was i wrong.. Spent saturday slacking away, n going to a club... haha, 1st time go clubbing in US... Is tt considered guai or naughty? Lolz... But too bad, there aint really much pretty girls... Haiz... Even if there is, think i'll just maintain a nice appreciative view of their prettiness ... Some flowers are nice to see, but once u touch, ur whole impression of it will be gone... Guess there are quite a lot of these wild flowers around too... So must be careful... Oh, as i was saying, stupid me slacked so much tt i had to put in much more effort to catch up wif work... Feeling a lil stress now, yeah a lil... as compared to my frens, i'm much better off... whew... Hope everything will turn out well at the end of the week, n hopefully, i can be able to go out... with... Lolz...

think i haven updated this fer a week plus already, feeling quite bad bt it... Its not tt i'm too lz to update, but sometimes, u know when u dun have the mood to update it... Like its not the right time to do so... But many stuff happened in my life these few weeks, too much fer me to even remember all... But basically, decisions were made n changed, my mood was constantly changing, not due to my own mood swings, but rather, external factors... Sometimes u just feel, u're no diff from anyone else... In e sense that no matter how different u think u are, in the face of certain situations, u are actually no diff from anyone else... U may think u're special, but tts simply not true... Its a sad fact of reality, and i had a first time experience of it... Haiz... But now tt time has passed me by, i did a lil recollection of my actions and realised tt i could have been wrong all the while... Hmm... Think i'm really quite enjoying my lessons this semester... Concepts of maths is fun, as always is maths to me... When its like really maths which involves logic, counting, etc.. Social psy is good, and it really makes me think better... Understand myself better... As when i'm doing my hw, or reading thru, then i'll realise that actually, there are times when i exhibit traits or actions that are explained in the course... The other classes are nice too, but think i'd most prob put u all to sleep by telling wads so great bt the courses i'm taking... Haha... In fact, i think it'd put me to sleep too.. Lolz.. Have been confused many times as i've said b4, thinking bt stuff.. .In fact, i had my one night when i couldnt get to sleep... My first time in CMU... Arrgh... Too bothered bt stuff, but guess its more or less kindaf settled already... Or at least i think i finally know wad i shd do bt it... Or mebbe, i shd just consult my frens bt it... Hmm... Decision time! Next few weeks will be quite xiong fer me, wif the CNY dinner n the exams taking up quite some time... Sianz... Dun even haf time fer other stuff... Like... Think the final hr is finally arriving... Just like e finishing line... Shd i try to finish it in one burst? If i fail to do so, then e race is over... Or shd i like try to maintain speed or hasten speed, but nv ever putting everything into it... Hmm... Think i really dunno too... But glad tt nowadayz got lotsaf fun stuff fer me to do... Eg. playing soccer, or badminton, or eating, or organizing stuff, or considering my options to play or wadever... If w/out all these stuff, i'll surely be bored to tears one... Glad tt i have a nice grp of frens ard me though, who always make it a pt to keep me company or help me out when things arent really going my way... Haha... Dun really know wad i'm saying at times, juz rambling on n on bt stuff.. sianz... Haiz.... Anyway, shall just sign off with a small note: "Sometimes, u know u can put in ur utmost effort, but u dun... Cos u wanna leave an excuse fer urself in case u fail... N in this case, which u'll probably fail too... "