Chena hot springs!

The most notable pt bt the trip must be the whooping 180 we paid fer it, which includes the 1.5 hr journey there, a dinner, n entrance to the hot springs which actually only costs 10 bucks... But its christmas day, n all shops are closed so well, i guess its the best we can do on xmas day itself.

I wasnt a real fan of hot springs but i really wanted to do do sledding, which was previously said to be unavailable. So yeah, i was in a drowsy mood there... Thinking bt stuff along the 1.5 hr trip until i dozed off... but i was awakened by a series of whispers n giggling with 5 pairs of eyes of intense stares at me... N i knew tt was it... I am so dead... I juz prayed tt i did not do anything too paiseh when i was asleep, until i realised tt... tt i actually... tt i actually actually ... the first time i slept on someones shoulder... N no prizes fer guessing but its... ming yang! After the kissin incident some time ago, n now this... I think my image is really shattered liao.... N wads worse... they actually took pics of it too... I pray xinyu is nice enuff to juz forget bt it...

Consolation came soon enuff, wif the dog sled rides being available when we reached. Now that is why i came here... Me, junwei, ming yang, stone were on 1 sled, n i can imagine the dogs swearing wen they see jw boarding the sled. A whooping 260 pounds, + 1 unshaven jap-lookalike yandaoz + 1 food gourmet + an ever growing fat boy, tts like a total of 730 pounds + the big sized driver + sled, splitted by 8 dogs... each dog would be dragging at least 100 pounds over 2 miles... Tts like omg lorz... i was still calculating when the dogs started running n before i knew it, i was whizzing thru the snow... N yes, it was freakin cold!! -20 celsius at least. But it was shiok... my primary purpose of the alaska trip was finally fulfilled... :P took a gd video of it too, do ask me fer it as i dunno how to post on blogger...
















The hot springs was well, hot! went in to a hot pool first, before running out to the hot springs in a pair of tights... Tt 15 seconds of nakedness in -20 celsius could have killed me i swear, n the heat of the hot sprins when i jumped into it could have killed me again... It was my first time in a hot spring, but it was night time when we jumped in, yes, night time in fairbanks start at 3pm. It was very misty, n dark, n steamy... *Use ur imagination*
u could only make out silhouettes of everyone, n of cos, i tried to imagine every silhouette to be a hot babe... The feeling was kindaf like as though i am drunken in a dream, the only difference was the heat of the water reminding me it aint so... =p
Sorry there arent pics, i was sane enuff to know tt my camera aint waterproof, though i know u ppl out there are dying fer topless pics of ming yang... =p

The ice musum tour was like omg... the sculptures in ice were darn real... N there was actually a chapel there where ppl could et married... Not to mention rooms in the ice museum, made of ice (duh!) wif proper beds fer ppl to rent n stay in... Reminds me of the yan uo n xiao lon nu story...
But pics speak louder than words, so here u got it!






























After tt was the wait fer the aurora to appear... When it finally appeared, it was nothing like those pics on post cards. If u want a picture of wad i saw, i advise u to juz imagine an alien spaceship crashing behind a mountain and emitting a green glow... Its better than me postin the totally black pic which my camera captured...

Alaska: Snow snow n more snow...
I still remembered the first day we arrived, we were dragging our luggages through the snow... feeling so cold... N of cos, who can forget the constant kb-in we have about who snores the loudest... But this honor still belongs to our biggest gui bong, Jun wei...
This trip is really quite different from the rest of my trips, cos it was a trip tt i din know anything about beforehand. I do not know where we are going, i dunno wat our plans are, and i certainly dunno wad is there to do ere. But i still came. I guess the main focus of the trip is to be happy and enjoy ourselves. Ate lotsaf nice food, but i can feel myself growing fat liao. Yes, u are hearing me complain bt putting on weight again. I have no idea y i am thinking so much like a female... but wadever.

had lotsaf nice conversations with my frens along the trip, some of which dug out painful regrets of the past. But wat is more impt is tt we learn from the mistakes made n not repeat them again. Once again, everyone is asleep except me, and i would so want to sleep soon... Will post pics n updates soon... cya...

Double post!

Ya, its those times when i feeling bored... Cos i doing programming... even though i juz finished finals... With josh groban's voice by my side...

My newest fav song: My confession

That I feel myself surrender
Each time I see your face.
I am staggered by your beauty,
Your unassuming grace.
And I feel my heart is turning,
Falling into place.
I can't hide
Now hear my confession.

Ok, i've decided to stop programming n go watch show. Yeah, tt does make me happier now. Hope i dun feel bored enuff to do a triple post.=p

Preparing for exams

Juz realised tt my blog is frequented by another fren, someone whom i'd nv expect to visit my blog. Still tot tt I more or less know who actually reads wad i wrote, but well, i'm wrong... Hmmm, perhaps i shd be more careful in wad i say here.

I always tell myself tt i shd be more decisive, but guess i'm still easily swayed by ppl. I tend to trust wad everyone says, but i think i've finally decided that sometimes, i should just go ahead with what i think and feel rather than what others say. But advice from gd frens are always appreciated.

I've made some stupid mistakes time n time again, becos of my character. I hope its not too late.

N exams are over. Dunno how i did, dun wish to think bt it.
N its said that its -18 F in Alaska now. i wonder y could i be persuaded to actually to go Alaska when i wasnt interested. Haiz... I hope i can make it back to pitt. pls pray for me.

23rd birthday!

Yet another yr passed by... N i am older once again... Had tried to plan something on the eve, but it failed utterly... Well, cant blame anyone buy myself i guess...

Nonetheless, i had a great bday still! Thx to jw fer driving me to pittsburgh mill, and michelle n winston too fer accompanying me to shop n look ard... Its really been a long time since i last visited a mall in pittsburgh... Too bad i din manage to get my trenchcoat, but still had a nice time there... N of cos, thx to my buddy mingyang n alan fer enjoying a great dinner wif me... Was planning to watch a movie b4 tt but there was a sudden change of events...

My fren had previously called me b4hand to ask me if i wanna hang out tt night... But as i was out shopping, i told her tt i was gng to eat dinner wif jw they all... Was planning tt maybe i'll eat dinner wif her on sunday night since i really feel like catching a movie... But then, mingyang told me sth during dinner tt made me feel bad...

This was the reason...
















Yeah, they baked me a birthday cake! All of a sudden i was like omg... Felt really bad throughout dinner... But well, it wasnt too late when i got back n guess all's well tt ends well... :)

N of cos, thx to all those great pals out there who remembered my bday... =p

Too bad i still have 1 final to mug for... Zzz...

"Ah Wang"

Spent the whole day watching this hong kong drama serial.... Its really very heart warming, with the story mainly revolving around a guy who is mentally challenged, but yet, manages to win people over with his sincerity and honesty. Including a very capable, pretty n righteous girl.

Which got me thinking... Even though he is living in his own little world, he is happy most of the time. Yet, how many of us here are actually happy even 1/2 of the time? I shall say i am not. I get easily affected by events n stuff ard me, but i get over them fast too. Perhaps tts the reason y ignorance is bliss at times.

Weirdly enough, i find myself bearing some resemblance to him, in some ways which I would act. I tend to trust people easily, i am stubborn in my ways and weirdly enough, i'd also want the person i like to be happy. The only difference is i nv like to express myself directly at times.

Then i see how his mum cares for him, constantly nagging at him. Which once again reminds me of my mum, constantly nagging at me, treating me as her little baby even though i'm a whooping 23. Yes, i am officially 23 now. Thx to all those who wished me happy bday, really appreciated it.

Hope is a dangerous thing. Too dangerous. So i will not hope that today will be a great day, i just know that today is going to be a great day.

N i HATE getting pangsehed. Thanks.

BORED

I am so freaking full... Ate too much juz now...
N i am so bored... I dun wanna play warcraft the whole week... Too bad everyone's busy... Haiz... But i really need to have another objective in life... Arrgh...
I AM REALLY BORED...

3 am...

I have no idea y i suddenly feel an urge to write something. But i do. I was so sleepy during the dota game, n now i'm awake. Guess its the caffeine from the coffee taking its effect...
I felt so aimless the last few days, when i finally have time to slack. I played games, lots of them. But i juz feel aimless... Maybe its cos everyone else is busy, n i am the only slacking so i dunno wad to do. Guess i'm really a very "herd" person.

I'd rather eat crap at home then go to some place to eat by myself. I'd rather stay home n rot then go shopping on my own. I'd rather not do anything then do something alone.

Finally there's something to do tmr. But weirdly i aint exactly looking forward to it, cos i seemed to have some sort of rough schedule set up for the next few days. But well, it beats doing nothing. I'm such a workaholic, i wonder if there are classes which can rid me of this addiction. I juz gotta get used i think, the dark days are over...

why am i studying so hard...

I finally found the answer... though everyone tells u tt u shd study for urself, but apparently its not so in my case... I do not want my parents to worry bt me, tts y i get gd grades to make them happy. It has always been the case since young, its not going to change... I'm glad i found my answer. But still, life is about enjoying urself as i said yday. That is not gng to change. So what is gng to change? Me taking slacker courses....

I realise tt i always put on a strong front in front of my parents. I dont want them to worry.
I put on a strong front in front of my friends. I dont want to think tt i'm weak n dependent.

But there are times when u just wanna dun be strong anymore... times when u just wish to share some things with someone... ... ...

But no matter what, i cfm tt things will not repeat themselves...

Seeing the light...

Maybe it sounds a lil stupid, but i finally saw the light. Life aint juz bt grades n studying n knowledge seeking, its really more of just enjoying urself. I mean, 1 yr ago, i'd have want to cramp as much subjects as possible, but now, i'd just want to simply take my courses, n of course, have time to relax myself and do what i want. Its late i know, but better late than never.

Imagine 30 yrs down the road... Ur child is 20 yrs of age. N he/she asks u: "Pa, what did you do when you were young?"
To be honest, i'd be stupefied...
I mean, i'd come up with the usual army stories... Of the funny things tt happen.

N of cos, my jc stories, about how it was like changing from a single sex school to a mixed school.

But when it comes to college, i'd just tell him how xiong my courses were, how i spent hundreds of hours on projects, how i spent 24 hrs in the ece cluster, etc. How boring is tt? I'd certainly think my dad has no life if he tells me tt, unfortunately, he tells me of his interesting life as a young, rich, "shao ye" kindaf guy driving a car to school in those days...

I certainly aint tt young, nor rich... But i do want an interesting life outside studies... It may be late to realise now, but seriously, there is much more to life than school work... N it gd tt i have seen thru it...

my first time...

For the past 23 yrs, or rather, 22 yrs n (365-6) days...
I have nv felt it before...
I have nv seen another person advancing towards me... To kiss me...
N ya, u guess it... I saw that yesterday... Not that the person is ugly, not at all... In fact, some would even say that the person is attractive...
There lies only 1 problem...

its a HE!!!!

Yes, a fren was attempting to kiss me... I know that it would be fun to see... But i'd be letting myself down if i post those pics up there... But i know ppl would want to see it.... So, i juz used a photo from my fren's blog... Thx to www.novacraft.blogspot.com for the pic...














*Sigh* I hope that my image would not be tarnished, or if there's actually any image of me remaining... *Sigh*

N tts not all....
U c in birthday parties ppl getting their face smashed into cakes right?
It happens all the time in dramas, in movies, in fantasy stories...
N u're to guess tt my face was smashed into a cake... But nah... Not at all...

*A cake was smashed into my face...*

Yes... A whole big cake... N here's the story... As xj picked up the cake, me and jw, my other birthday buddy started running... He headed into the toilet, i ran after him but my injured leg made me run slower... Then xj comes... jw went into the cubicle... I ran inside also... He tried to close the door, i tried to more inside... But being jw, his massive frame blocked the cubicle... I cant go in... Time froze... I tried to move, but i cant, i can only see the cake coming towards me... I panicked, i tried to move even more... But i still cant. Then the cake comes... I turned myself away... And then...



















Ya.... Tts poor me...

24hrs... n its still not enuff...

Yes, its finally the end of sem... Worked 24hrs in the cluster to finish my project, which i was unable to accomplish... N i blame all this on my own stupidity as well as the TA's anal "this is a design project" excuse for not helping me at all... Left me there totally clueless for amny days... On the night itself, i thought heaven is pitying me by sending a "god-like" M.S. student who was done and was so kind to sit there n help me out. Its really like i'm totally lost n then a light shone on me... I really felt so grateful to him, even though in the end, i cant complete it, but still, as i always say, its not the result tt matters more, but the thought n effort... So even though i din finish it, i'm still happy tt its finally over... =p

Its been so long since i last felt so tired... I mean, if i can juz concuss through a dinner, it must be really bad... din feel the effect initially until suddenly i juz felt myself being enveloped by some lethargic wave, machiam like i was injected by some sleeping drug... Arrgh... But as u'd prob guess it, i still went home, played games n slept at 3... =p

In the cluster...

Well, i nv really thought of trying to blog in the cluster until today... maybe its cos i am juz simply running simulations until i get what i want... Which sounds dumb but in actual fact, takes up a lot of understanding which i obviously lack... Tts y i am in the cluster now while the grad students are sleeping happily at home...

I am also chatting at the same time... N i am using Gaim... N it has this feature, that tells u if a person has closed a conversation window... Maybe i am reading too much into it, but its like telling u how a person's attitude is towards chatting with u...

1. If the person closes the window after everytime u send a msg, n it takes like 100000 yrs b4 he/she replies => GET LOST! I dun wanna talk to u...

2. If a person closes the window after every msg, => he/she is prob talking to 100000 other ppl n needs the window space...

3. If a person keeps ur window open but dxn reply => he/she is busy wif some other things...

4. If a person replies after every msg within 5 secs, (which nv seems to happen to me)=> he/she really really likes talking to u...

I wonder how much more features would be in-corporated into chatting...

Stuck...

I feel so helpless... I juz freaking dun understand this project at all! Haiz... Hope everything will turn out well...

These days i always like to keep listening to 1 song only... for 50 times before switching...
It was "Tui hou" by Jay chou today, and now, it is "Lei de fang xiang" by Shi Wen Bin...
How i crave fer ktv all of a sudden...

N "Lei de fang xiang" is really very nice...

Letting myself down...

How expected... I broke a resolution i set in less than 2 days... juz great...

This week's gonna be hell, but somehow, i am not panicking even though i am worried... Maybe i juz know tt somehow, some way, things will turn out right... N as usual, i am optimistic bt things... Too optimistic i think...

I used to laugh at my dad falling asleep on the armchair after meals. Now, i am doing the exact same thing, falling asleep on the armchair for 2 consecutive days unknowingly. Too much things weighing on my mind i guess...

Juz realised tt "Masterpiece" by Atlantic Starr was too sad...
Switched to a chinese song " Zhi zu" by MayDay... Perhaps its time i shd be satisfied with my life n stop bitching n feeling sad for myself...

I want...

A compilation of all those nice, soft, sentimental songs... Found myself suddenly craving fer them.

To go to some quiet hotel lounge, sip upon a cocktail, n listen to those old nice songs... Too bad there aint any such places in pittsburgh, or rather i dun know any yet. N even if there is, i doubt anyone would be interested.

Someone to talk to me now! Feeling very sian after studying fer exams. N there's juz no mood fer gaming.

P.S. An example of a great song is "Masterpiece" by Atlantic Starr.
Go d/l it! Or can ask me fer it. I was sooooo happy to be able to find it juz now, my day is made...

One bad night...

I nv felt worse this sem... Limping in the cold, thinking of many things...

Was reminded of the biggest regret of my life halfway thru dinner... N i'm still amazed at the hold it has on me, n the tears it almost caused.

N u thought 3 hit combos existed only in marvel super heroes. I thought so too, until i withstood one... Kena elbowed in the gut region, had a bad bad twist on my foot, and to end it all, my face was nicely "decorated"... Super combo finish! I was out of the game... Indefinitely...

All of a sudden, i felt like a wrestler competing in WWE:
A low blow by ric flair, followed by an ankle lock by kurt angle and finally, a chair shot by Edge which busted my face wide. Haha. I'm still laughing.

N i couldnt get to sleep... Laid in bed fer some time... Enjoying the comfort in my bed... N thinking of the words a close fren said... She was right...

Did u know?

A new theory learnt today made me realise something bt myself i din know...
The Ladder theory... (how guys n girls rate the opposite sex)

Guys: there is only 1 ladder... Every girl is on it...
Girls: there are 2 ladders, 1 is the friendship ladder, 1 is the relationship ladder...

I feel weird...