I really noticed some changes in the me today and the me last time... Last time meaning years back, or even last yr...
1. I've become quite impatient, too eager for success at times... Maybe cos im used to just getting what i want, but i shd really learn tt its not always the case...

2. I've become more irresponsible towards ppl... N i tend to want to show everyone tt im less responsible... So tt they wun expect too much of me, and i can just do wad i want... Its tiring to always have to consider everyone's feelings n stuff... N i consider everyone's feelings, but who would consider mine?

3. N lastly, i cant take it when ppl treat me for granted... Both guys n girls... I organise stuff, n ask ppl along... N i hate it when ppl keep pangseh on me... I think i used to take it better last time, but now, i juz feel like ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ when tt happens... It'd help if they're apologetic bt it, like how i'd be when i do pangseh... But i guess not everyone is like that... I dunno, but i really care bt how ppl feel towards this type of small things... Call me sensitive or wadever, but ya, i always think tt ppl shd be responsible for the words they say or the promises they make... N subsequently, i'll juz heck care the person... Mostly cos of ego problems... I admit my ego aint small, and i seriously do think tt there is no need for me to keep asking ANYONE out... There has only been 1 exception so far... N tt number will NOT increase...

After listening to wu ke qun's songs, i really feel like gng to k... But now after watching michael jackson's video clip, i feel like clubbing all of a sudden... N i haven been clubbing ever since i started work... Perhaps its time to go bahz...

But here's something interesting... I think tt girls who rarely club, but think that i club are usually more friendly to me than girls who club, or girls who think i dun club... Well, i dunno if statistics count, but i think its the 3rd case liao... N similarly, all suaned me when i say i dun go tt often n give tt innocent look... (which btw is true... I seriously dun club tt much) But ya, they're the ppl who're more friendly towards me...

Anyways, long weekend coming up... But no exciting plans yet... Still deliberating over if i shd jio ppl for clubbing n go, or not... But i know as the clock ticks, probably i'd juz do nth... N nth will happen... I'll juz rot my weekend away... Zzz....

At least i think im feeling better today than yday n monday... Though my productivity declined to almost a 0 today, but at least im better... Mood wise... Juz hope the worst is finally over... =p

Its not tt i hate work... In fact, it can be said tt im actually liking wad im doing... But for some reason, sunday nites are juz nites i cant get to sleep easily... Dunno wad im thinking of also... But juz cant get to sleep tt easily bahz...

Went shopping today, but din find anything i liked... In fact, the whole stretch from isetan - taka has much more female clothes than male clothes... Which means tt i spent more time looking @ female clothes than male clothes... Maybe shd've gone to vivo instead... At least i know exactly the shops tt id go in n try out stuff... But oh wells, at least it wasnt too wasted... The only thing tt i was close to buying was a zara top, which turned out to be too small... Yes, that was the L size...

long weekend next week! Think maybe i shd think of wad i shd do over the weekend... Dnd, Club, Ktv, Badminton all sound good... N perhaps another rd of shopping would make it even better...

Juz went to ktv a few days ago, n i tot it was really quite fun... Im really wanting to go again, but dunno who to ask... The ppl i know ktv are all pretty scattered, so iono... will try to org sth next week...
N Wu ke qun's songs are really quite nice... 残废 and also 不屑纪念... Its those standard slow, slightly sentimental chinese songs tt i like, perhaps im really over the hip hop/club era, n back into the sentimental/ktv era...


Im always someone who knows tt im a good person... Maybe i dun say it out tt much, or maybe its not right, but i always believed tt im a nice person, or at least, i try to be as nice as i can be... N i would always say tt u are what u believe... But for some reason, my confidence is wavering... Maybe its all the times i keep hearing my fren condemn guys from tchs... About just how ungentlemanly tchs guys are, how cmi they are, n blah blah blah...

Yes, i might not be the best guy ard, n to some, i might even be quite cmi... I might be quite bo chap at times, but sometimes there is always a limit to the amt tt i can take... It really dxn feel gd to always be criticised as being cmi, and to be fair, no matter how bad tchs guys might be, its still wrong to stereotype... Dunno... But i'm really starting to feel slightly bothered... Seriously... I shd do sth bt it... Or maybe, juz dun hang out wif them at all...

There is only a thin line between overcoming something n avoiding something.
N yes, i am only avoiding...
Zzzz...

Hmm this is the type of posts tt i c a lot of ppl do... Then the whole world will be concerned bt how they're doing... N ask them, but they dun reply... Which makes u wonder if they're juz want the attention n feel gd having it. But sometimes, its juz writing for the sake of writing... Makes u feel as though u've done something to vent tt frustration... Even though in actual fact, u've done nothing... but so long we feel better, who cares...

Haven blogged in a while... Or rather, haven published any posts in a while... Been more bz of late, wif more things gng on in my pathetic existence u call a life... Ok, tts a lil exaggerated, but u get the idea... Went out wif quite a few different frens, had 2 late sessions wif the cchs grp, n more sports sessions... But this cannot possibly carry on for long, im already quite tired out... Maybe drained is a better word to use...

So im nt planning anything much this coming weekend... Juz wanna nua a bit... Clear my head a bit... N then rethink bt things... I juz realised a problem wif me... A very big problem... I feel bad too easily... Over things which i shdnt feel bad about, i also feel bad... Zzz... N i think i've been thinking too much... Im hoping for an excuse brain weekend, wif nth to think about... Juz go out (if ppl ask me to) n do some shopping n stuff... Which reminds me, i still need to get 3 bday presents... Zzz... Ok, i do need to go out this weekend... Sighs...

To be honest, i feel a lil empty at times nowadays... At least last time i know i have to work hard to get good grades... As for y need to get good grades, i guess its just the norm? Now, i think working life is just about getting things done, no As, no Bs, just pass... the difference is just how long u need to pass... But u'll still pass in the end, so its not really tt intensive as studying...

A good fren of mine called me a smoker... Cos there are things tt i know is not good for myself, but i'll still do it... But to me, its not really a matter of choice... Ill definitely not do things i wun like, so i guess its juz a matter of finding something tt i like tts not bad for myself then...

There are 2 songs in this world tt i wish i wouldnt hear...
1. I'm yours by Jason Mraz
2. Nobody knows it but me by Babyface
The only difference is, i liked the 2nd song when i first heard it...

Talking bt songs, i've heard "Di Shi Hang Xing" at least a few hundred times since last fri... It went on for 10+ hrs on sat, n whenever i put on my mp3 player, i kept listening to it... But i think im finally slightly sick of it... But then again, i think i've been listening to my mp3 player so much tt im sick of almost all those songs, all the songs tt i really liked... Its a weird feeling isnt it? Liking something but yet feeling sick of it... Hmmm...