The 3 sides of me...

Its really amazing how much i can change from day to day... Wednesday, thursday, n today seem like 3 totally different shihongs... Ok, its still the same tall dark handsome me, only change is my character... (j/k... ) I was feeling very down on wednesday, maybe cos i feel stressed bt work n other stuff.... Its like i juz wanna be alone, din wanna talk, except maybe to a few ppl... But i still appreciate ppl who talk to me n stuff...
Thursday would be the normal me i guess... The same nice me... Boring yes, but nice also...
Today well, its different... For some reason, maybe becos of the sun, i dun feel being nice... But rather, being mean... I dun wanna be alone, i wanna have crowds of frens ard me... For some reason, i have more actions, more attitude, in fact, it seems tt as though Peter parker has changed into venom... Ok, maybe less extreme, but i do feel that way...

N it feels good actually... To be mean to ur frens once in a while, (of cos they know i'm joking)... To act more "promiscuously" as mingyang would put it... Maybe not in the sense of really being promiscuous but maybe just more social i guess... Iono... Well, gng to be driver for food fest again... Yes, with a car comes great responsibility... Hopefully the day will go well... =p

My life thus far...

Haven really been updating this as much as i would have liked to... But i guess my friends in cmu n sg are still updated with this sad existence we call life... Ok larz, tts a lil exaggerated, my life not tt sad... But anyways, Thanks to the "S2" branch established here, i guess u guys out there more or less know wads gng on wif my life these days...
Yeah, lotsaf work... N i am complaining once again that the workload is a bit insane... I am contemplating dropping courses... The only question is which...
N though i dun wanna advertise it, but yeah, i finally got my car... Haha... The car which i've always wanted to get... The car which i liked so much... Got it last week, and the pittsburgh parking authority celebrated my purchase by giving a gift in the form of a parking ticket, oh well, it was my fault for not checking to see if the spot was illegal or not. But yeah, i got my first ticket barely 1/2 hr into getting the car... Haha...

Din go to cedar point with the rest of the guys... Not that i hated cedar point, but i just din really fancy the idea of having my whole weekend gone... I had a pretty stressful week, n i need time to just chill n relax n do nothing... N besides, i do have quite some work to do, which i din really finish, and so, leaving me wif quite some other stuff this week... 6 courses aint tt easy, esp when i'm taking most of the classes alone... Haha... Hoping to go do something this weekend, n it seems pretty possible, with all my grp mates being either last-minute workers, or kan cheong spiders who wanted to do everything asap... But dxn matter... I will still be able to relax in the weekend, i hope...

Its really amazing how sometimes ur opinion of ppl can differ so much from the truth. I mean, if i see this person in parties, i'd assume he dxn study but party everyday... which may be a bit different from what i thought. But of course, who can guarantee that he is not lying when he is telling me bt his life... I mean, after being haunted by spectre, i'd have learnt that most things are more than meets the eye... Lets hope i am too cynical this time round...

Well, tts juz a quick update bt my life...

My car saga...

yes... The car which i've probably told 10001 ppl that i will get... The car that i had 101% confidence tt i would get.... The car tt i thought was really nice...
N ya, its gone... or rather, my desire to get a car has almost vanished too... I woke up super early, at ard 8 am... Even though i drank n slept at ard 4+... But juz couldnt sleep... Perhaps its the excitement... But tts not the pt... When the person at AAA told me i couldnt register my car, i was really sian... Really really sianz... My whole mood was down, n the first thing i tot of was... I feel like drinking tonight... I guess its the whole-expecting-something-but-getting-nothing feeling... But at least i think it has tided over... I'll try to find ways ard the problem on monday, but tmr, i am only hoping to be able to finish my hw... Sighs... I really dun want to take 2 grad ece courses next sem n ruin my good sem...

A tipsy post...

Juz went to drink juz now... Had a bit, not a lot, but enuff for me to be a lil less reserved... Some ppl are happy drunk, some are sad drunk, some are angry drunk, but i guess i'm juz emo drunk... Eg, i tend to feel more when i drink... I.e. feel lonely... Sometimes i wonder if things i am doing are actually worth it, if people are actually genuinely viewing me as a friend, or simply becos i am doing things for them, or becos i am useful to them... Cant help but feel like this at times, maybe cos i know i am not the type of "fun" or "funny" person, but rather, i am just a more serious kind of person... Someone who is more concerned bt reality, bt what is right and wrong, bt responsibility, etc... But i guess i will just trust my frens, tt they like me for really who i am... Not who i am hoping to be, or wad i can do for them, but rather, just the simple me... =p

A moody day

Some days are juz meant to pass by quickly. Today is such a day. I would really like to stay at home n do nothing... But i have work to do... Not tt i am gng to do it anyways, but i think tt my "Seemingly efforts" to do work by staying in school would make me feel better. Even though i'd prob end up watching some chinese drama.

Some days are also meant to be spent alone. Perhaps wif a few gd frens, but nothing more.

N as a side note while i was washing my face in the morning, i think i belong to the category of ppl who look better by not smiling. So perhaps today is one of the days i look best...

Dramas affect me. They make me happy, make me sad, and it seems tt i can always empathize with the ppl in the drama serials. I think that i provide good advice or counsel to ppl who need it, i think tt i can read ppl well... But there will always 1 person i can nv read well, nor help... Yes, that person is me.