Busy week... Worked quite a bit of OT, i think i clocked more than 10 hrs of OT for the whole week... N the worst is, i still couldnt find the bug... zzz... but its hard too, considering u haf 3 ppl using 1 machine... But i really enjoyed working wif my colleagues, think our frequency lvl all the same one, so quite a lot of laughter in the midst of stress too... lol... Still no progress after a week, n the bosses are kindaf stressed out too... Hope i can find the bug soon...

Had a major downtime this week, was trying to settle some crap issues... Hope the ppl involved wake up from their idea soon... No way i can take any more of this...

N im seriously tired after soccer today... It feels like my life energy has been drained out of me... Think ill rest more during new yr...

CNY is coming soon... N i dun feel the excitement at all... Maybe cos this is a gloomy CNY for me, there is nth much during tt time tt im looking forward to... In fact, i'd prefer it if its juz a normal weekend, a normal long weekend... At least i can still go do things i wanna do, instead of facing relatives, or doing bo liao things like iono... There must be some bo liao things tt we do during CNY tt i dun like...

Yeah, prob from there it seems tt im slightly moody... N yeah i am... Yday was talking to my frens n then juz realised, its lesser than a month before a more impt day... V-day... My frens were kb-ing to me tt they have no one to ask out... N i tot for a while... N realised tt i have no one to ask out too... Oh wells... Not say i cant ask anyone out, but there really isnt anyone whom i wanna ask out... N tt being the case, n knowing how i draw very clear lines in these cases, ill prob end up being sian again...

N it wun help wif ppl telling me tt i can ask A out or ask B out, cos y, it simply isnt the case... Ok, i need to master the skill of squelching ppl... Its something i really need...

N of cos, the weekend isnt made any better by manu, chelsea, arsenal all winning and liverpool not playing yet...

N the word of the week is TIRED... I hear it, i read it, i saw it, i wrote it, n best of all, i felt it... N i tot working in the lab will make me feel gd always... But im wrong... Seriously, the lab has such horrendous reception, it makes me wonder how the z monster can sneak into a place where even signals cant get thru...

All the passion i felt last week, well, its being suppressed by the z monster... Its not tt i sleep late, or work too much... Its juz, i cant sleep well... Kept having dreams the past few days, n i have not had them for some time... N im not thinking a lot too...

Need to really play some sports n sweat it all out... tennis, soccer, badminton, anything goes... Maybe tts y im looking forward to badminton... Its hard to find sport khakis... I've given up hope on soccer, n im juz too noob for tennis... so there's only badminton left... At least weekend is coming, n i can juz rest...

A gust of cold wind blew past me just now... N i felt cold... Its been a long time since i feel like that, totally reminds me of US... When i used to walk back from oakland... (or walk from the restaurant to the car) Its really been a long time... N w/out me knowing, i've been back for 7 months already... N i seem to have accomplished nothing... In fact, nothing seemed to have changed... Its really scary when u start working and days just flash past... But i guess tts working life... We have a new focus in our life, n soon it'll grow to be a huge part of our lives, or at least, my life...

Kept wanting to update my blog, but nv really got down to doing it... N yup, quite a few thoughts of the day were lost... Getting old le...
Had quite a hectic week finding out wads wrong wif the system... N being a rtos just makes things even more interesting...
1. The errors appear at different parts of the code, n might not even appear at all during some runs...
2. Even a simple cout/printf would slow down the system timing, n cause errors to appear or disappear.
3. U need to track down wad is happening in the memory to log down wad the hardware is sending... (lucky cmu made me strong in looking at memory stuff)
4. U can nv pause the system to look at the variables, there are always other tasks running...

So its really shit... N i liken it to finding a murderer... There are so many suspects, but which is the one tt murders the system? N i am really enjoying myself doing it... To the extent i would gladly go back on weekends to debug if i have nth to do... lol...

It may sound weird but i am actually feeling happy when someone is no longer as friendly to me as she used to be... lol... Juz hope things are still chill btw us...

N i think im slowly transitioning back to my loner/dao state... Where i dun keep trying to organise stuff for myself, but rather, juz b happie whether my weekend involves any dates/meeting new ppl anot... Dunno if this is good or bad, but i think most impt is, im happier...

Last but not least, im caught onto another song... 情书 by With very nice lyrics...
我知道 回去不一定一路顺风
只希望 有天好好梳你的白头
Makes me feel something inside of me...

Im actually thinking of publicising my blog, i.e. tell more frens bt it n stuff... But i dun want ppl to see all my prev posts also... Hmm... Perhaps i can start a new blog, but i also want this to continue... After all, i feel safest writing to this one... Well, from my understanding of myself, i'll juz continue to write to this, n not publicise it... lol... Lets c if the new year changes anything...

2009!

One of the weirdest new year's eve EVER... I found a soln to my "absence" from the family dinners, i ate a new year's eve dinner wif them! Haha... Guess it helped to make me feel better bt last week... N no, tt wasnt the weird part...
I hung out wif my jc frens, my clique tt stuck together since jc... I feel tt everyone's growing up,
we all haf different concerns nw... Last time the common topic is just hw, gaming... Now, the common topic is work, girls... N seems to me tt my mindset has really changed towards a lot of things, n i think this mindset is slowly influencing them... N the weirdest thing is, i actually got challenged to a drinking/puking contest on new year's eve... Yup, idea is to get alcohol, n drink until 1 party pukes... N my fren isnt a drinker... N to save $$$, we bought vodka from 7-eleven n started drinking... lol... N im bo liao enuff to accept... haha

Everyone's been asking bt new year resolutions.... N tt sounds so familiar, it seems as though i actually did that last yr... Let me go dig it out...

New yr resolutions of 2008:
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1. To be able to go out once with the prettiest girl i ever met, n tell her that she is the prettiest girl i ever met. (the first part seems easier, the 2nd part, well iono...)

2. To get my 6 packs that has been eluding me since the time i was born...

3. To watch a movie (let it remain annoymous) with someone i would want to watch it with.

4. To help my sister with her school work n hopefully she can get better grades (2nd part of the yr)

5. To play soccer weekly

6. To be one of the best TAs i can ever be.

7. Last but not least, make all my frens around me happy...
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N lets see...
Failed resolution 1... (i din manage to tell her she's the prettiest girl i ever met)
Failed resolution 2... (self explanatory)
Failed resolution 3... (we got ard to doing quite a few things, but a movie was nv one of them)
Failed resolution 4... (I know nuts bt the topics my sis is doing)
Failed resolution 5... (i played soccer once in sg, n barely a few times more in US)
Failed resolution 6... (i think i sucked as a DADSS ta... The fire in me was extinguished)
Failed resolution 7... (i remember how worried my frens were for me)

Yup, n given this extremely obvious reason, there shd be no reason for me to make any more resolutions for 2009...